Sunday, September 6, 2009

JUST A LITTLE BEHIND

I DONT HAVE ANY GOOD REASON FOR NOT POSTING FOR AWHILE. I HAVE BEEN BUSY. SIMPLE AS THAT. I WILL NOT APOLOGIZE FOR WORKING, COMING HOME, CLEANING, COOKING SUPPER AND SPENDING TIME WITH MY FAMILY. I JUST SEE THINGS A LITTLE DIFFERENT NOW AND I WANT TO SOAK AS MUCH AS EACH DAY IN AS I CAN.

THINGS HERE IN THE MIDDLE OF MY TOWN HAVE BEEN GOING GREAT. THE ECONOMY SUCKS BUT IM NOT THE ONLY ONE SUFFERING BECAUSE OF IT. EVERYONE IS SHORT ON MONEY AND SHORT ON HUMOR. NOTHING IS FUNNY ANYMORE. ITS STRESS PILED UP WITH MORE STRESS. I DONT SEE HOW PEOPLE EXPECT YOU DO WHAT CANT BE DONE BUT THEY DO. I JUST LOOK AT THEM WITH THE "WHATEVER" LOOK.

AS FOR MORE HAPPIER THINGS. CHRIS AND I ARE DOING GREAT. HE HAS BECOME SO IMPORTANT TO ME. THE GIRLS HAVE BECOME ATTACHED TO HIM AND MATTHEW. MATTHEW IS LIKE ANOTHER CHILD OF MINE. WE ALL HAVE OUR MOMENTS BUT AT NIGHT ITS LIKE THE WALTONS AROUND HERE. ITS GOODNIGHTS WITH LOTS OF HUGS AND KISSES TO GO AROUND. WE HAVE ALL SAID THAT WE WOULD LET EACHOTHER KNOW HOW MUCH WE LOVE THEM BEFORE LAYING DOWN AT NIGHT.

CHRIS AND I ARE EMBARKING ON ALMOST A YEAR OF "TALKING". I SAY THIS BECAUSE AS MOST OF YOU KNOW..I WAS STILL "LIVING" WITH RON WHEN CHRIS AND I STARTED TALKING. HE WAS TRYING TO GET OUT OF A BAD REALTIONSHIP AND WONDERING AROUND TRYING TO FIND..WELL ME.

WE TALKED EVERYDAY. I HAD ALREADY MADE UP MY MIND WHEN CHRIS AND I STARTED TALKING ABOUT BREAKING UP WITH RON. HE LIKE I SAID WAS TRYING TO GET OUT OF A RELATIONSHIP ALSO. IT WAS HARDER FOR ME DUE TO THE FACT THAT RON ..WELL I WAS SCARED. HE WENT OUT WITH SEVERAL GIRLS DURING THIS TIME (IM NOT SAYING THATS A BAD THING) I JUST WANT TO MAKE IT CLEAR THAT WHEN WE FINALLY DECIDED TO BE TOGETHER ITS WAS LIKE 4 MONTHS AFTER OUR FIRST INTIAL TALK DATE.

HE SEES US TOGETHER FOR ALMOST A YEAR. I SEE IT A LITTLE DIFFERENT. I DO THIS CAUSE I WANT OUR RELATIONSHIP TO BE FREE AND CLEAR OF THE PAST. SO OUR DATE IS MID FEB. I SAY WE STARTED TALKING IN OCT AND BECAME AN ITEM IN FEB. ALL IN ALL WE ARE TOGETHER AND PLAN ON BEING THAT WAY ...FOREVER.

THE KIDS ARE DOING GOOD. MATTHEW IS PLAYING JV FOOTBALL. HE PRACTICES EVERYDAY AND COMES HOME ALL TIRED AND VERY VERY HUNGRY. WE LOOK FORWARD TO CHEERING HIM ON AT THE GAMES.

EMILY HAS SIGNED UP FOR CHEERLEADING. SHE IS IN MIDDLE SCHOOL NOW AND HER AND ERICA ARE SEPERATED FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER. SHE HAS A MIND OF HER OWN. SHE IS EXCITED ABOUT CHEERING FOR THE REC FOOTBALL TEAM.

ERICA IS GOING TO PLAY VOLLEYBALL. I SEE MIDDLE SCHOOL, JV AND VARISTY CALL HER NAME. SHE IS KINDA SCARED TO PLAY BUT I THINK IT WILL DO HER WELL TO HAVE HER OWN THING GOING ON. I REALLY LOOK FORWARD TO WATCHING THEM BOTH BECOME BRIGHT YOUNG LADIES.

JEFF IS HOLDIN HIS OWN. HE HAS GOOD DAYS AND BAD DAYS. WE TAKE EACH DAY ONE DAY AT A TIME. I PRAY THAT ALL WILL BE GOOD AND THAT HE CAN CONTINUE TO GROW INTO A FINE YOUNG MAN.

EMMA...LORD IS SHE BEAUTIFUL. SHE IS WALKING AND SAYING A FEW WORDS. SHE IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL GRANDDAUGHTER ANYONE COULD HAVE. SHE WILL BE ONE IN 13 DAYS. ITS HARD TO BELIEVE BUT TIME DOES FLY.

WELL THATS A LITTLE UPDATE ON THIS HOUSE WE CALL HOME. I WILL TRY TO KEEP YOU UP ON WHAT HAPPENS BUT NO PROMISES.

TILL NEXT TIME..BE SAFE

Thursday, May 14, 2009

So Proud!!!

Recently I have been very busy with all the sports that are being played. Its really hard to sit still for too long due to the fact that when I get off of work, I come home, do some cleaning and its off to the ballfield or track field.

Matthew(Chris's son-ya know my new man...hee hee), is such a great athlete. I think I have told you that in an earlier post, but he is really commited to sports. This past week he went to lower state playoffs in Charleston. He ran so good. He ran his race and qualified to go to State. We head off this coming weekend to Lower Richland County High School for him to compete. We all will be there to cheer him on. GOOD LUCK MATTHEW!!...( I will post later with an update on the results)

The girls have a game tonight. Im not exactly sure who we play but what does that matter. It never does. They play and I cheer them on.

This post is short but I have to go clean a little before its time to head out again. Have a Great Day.

Thursday, May 7, 2009

WHAT DO I SAY.

This morning as I was doing my normal morning talk with Hope, I made a comment about her not posting as often as she use to. Well, she replied "What about you?". So..I figured I could not let another day go by that I didnt blog.

I have been very busy lately. The softball, baseball and track games have been keeping all of us on the road and not at home. I love ball season. It has always thrilled my soul to see all the kids out there enjoying themselves. It doesnt hurt that Emily and Erica are playing and they just are great. Matthew (might as well say he mine too) is running track and playing baseball. The track meets and baseball games and practice have so far fell into place so we could do it all. All the kids have been doing their best. They get out there and are so headstrong.

Emily and Erica have been juggling positions this year. Emily, last year, played catcher all year. She got use to it. This year with all the "newness" with different positions has been trying at times. All in all its been going great. I cheer them on and I sometimes holler a little too loud for their comfort but thats what I'm suppose to do. I enjoy the looks they give me too.

Matthew has been a busy young man. Running track and playing baseball has been very physical. He seems to like it more and more each day. This weekend we head out to the Lower State Track Meet in Charleston for him to participate. I from the bottom of my heart wish him all the luck in the world. I will also be cheering him on and smiling knowing that he is doing what he loves to do.

Now as for me. I am great. Chris and I are doing great. I really dont know much more to say on us. GREAT. We are growing; slowly. I think that is the best way. I think that way you can grow on eachother instead of being forced to feel a certain way. Chris has met all the important people in my life. My number one is my best friend Hope (as if anyone didnt know that). I just dont feel like I could have moved from where we were at that point until she got to see what I see. We visited her and its like it was suppose to be. Harmonious. Never have I known that feeling. Im glad to have found Chris and I hope that we will continue to grow. I look forward to spending more time with him and showing him off. Its nice to know that some things you hope for in life actually do happen. I have always wanted a peaceful life where of course there are going to be rainy days but you know that with you standing " BESIDE" your mate, anything is possible.

THANK YOU CHRIS FOR WALKING AND STANDING BESIDE ME. LIFE IS SO MUCH MORE ENJOYABLE THAN WALKING A STEP BEHIND. THANKS FOR LETTING ME GROW. SUNSHINE SEEMS TO DO THAT TO THINGS.

Well, Ive got to go get ready for another night at the ballfield. Good luck girls and Matthew. If I dont get back to you before the weekend... Good Luck Saturday Matthew !!!

Thursday, March 12, 2009

WINTER CLEANING....APRING ANEW

I HAVE OFTEN WONDERED WHAT IT WAS LIKE TO BE REALLY HAPPY. IF ONLY FOR A MOMENT I AM THAT. HAPPY. CONTENT. AND ONLY A LITTLE STRESSED.

EVERYONE KNOWS WHAT THEIR OWN ROUTINE IS OF SPRING CLEANING. WELL I HAVE INVENTED MY OWN CLEANING. W---I---N---T---E---R (SEASON THAT I DECIDED TO DO AWAY WITH SOME "ONE")
I CLEANED IT OF ALL THE NEGATIVE ( MY EX BOY-FRIEND OF 9 LONG YEARS.)I GOT RID OF THE OLD ONE THAT WAS USELESS AND ALL THE OTHER STUFF I JUST DIDNT WANT ANYMORE AND MADE HIM LEAVE.

I HONESTLY AND TRULY AM GLAD I DID THIS. IT TOOK ALOT OF DETERMINATION. I HAVE TRIED TO DO THIS FOR AWHILE BUT SOMETIMES ITS HARDER TO DO THAN TO SAY YOU WANT TO. I WAS TIRED OF WHAT MY LIFE HAD BECOME. I THINK ALOT OF NERVOUSNESS WAS DUE TO INSECURITY, THE LACK OF KNOWING, AND JUST PLAIN SCARED. I HAD GOOD FRIENDS TO GET ME THRU THE FIRST COUPLE OF DAYS.
TO MY SUPRIZE EACH DAY HAS GOTTEN EASIER. ANOTHER THINGS IS IS THAT I HAVE FOUND SOMETHING THAT MAKES EACH DAY A LITTLE MORE ENJOYABLE(WHICH BEFORE CLEANING WAS MISERABLE). IT AMAZES ME HOW JUST A FRESH INSIGHT ON LIFE CAN CHANGE EVERYTHING; HOW YOU LOOK AT LIFE AND HOW YOU ACT ABOUT EACH AND EVERYTHING THAT YOU DO.

I WISH I COULD PUT INTO WORDS HOW THE WINTER CLEANING CHANGED MY LIFE. I DID DO AWAY WITH THE OLD AND GOT SOMETHING NEW. I HOPE ITS NOT BORROWED. I HOPE THAT MY FRESHNESS STAYS ...A VERY LONG TIME. I THINK ITS LIKE SOMETHING THAT YOU PLANT AND WATCH IT GROW. SOMETIMES THINGS GET A LITTLE WILTY BUT WITH A LITTLE WATER IT COMES BACK TO LIFE AND IS A BEAUTIFUL AS EVER. THATS WHAT I FEEL LIKE. THE PLANT THAT HASNT BEEN WATERED FOR A VERY LONG TIME. I WAS AT THE BRINK OF DIEING BUT SOMEONE GAVE ME WATER AND HAS GIVEN ME A CHANCE TO LOOK AT THE WORLD AGAIN. TO SEE THE MORNING SUNRISES AND EVENING SUNSETS. THEY ARE BEAUTIFUL...AND THANKS TO YOU WHO HAVE STUCK BY ME THRU THICK AND THIN. I AM SO GRATEFUL FOR THE LENDED EARS. THE SHOULDERS THAT I HAVE LEANED ON WHEN I WANTED TO CRY. IT HAS BEEN A LONG ROAD AND I SEE THE HORIZON THAT I AM SUPPOSE TO BE SEEING. I HAVE A WONDERFUL MAN IN MY LIFE NOW. HE IS A BLESSING. WE ARE TAKING IT DAY BY DAY. I AM SO NEW TO THIS DATING THING THAT IT SCARES ME SOMETIMES BUT WHEN I HAVE DOUBTS HE DOES SOMETHING THAT MAKES ME FEEL AT EASE.
I DO NOT KNOW WHAT WILL BECOME OF US BUT I SURE DO HOPE TO WATCH MANY SUNSETS AND SUNRISES WITH HIM. I ALSO WANT TO THANK HIM FOR BEING WHO HE IS...A WONDERFUL MAN THAT HAS GIVIN ME A CHANCE TO BE ME. HE ALLOWS ME TO BE MY OWN PERSON WITHOUT "TELLING" ME OR "EXPECTIN" ME TO DO SOMETHING.
ONLY TIME WILL TELL WHAT IS STORE FOR US.

I AM GLAD TO BE ON THIS JOURNEY WITH HIM ...I CANT WAIT TO SEE WHERE WE END UP!!!

Saturday, January 31, 2009

THINGS HERE ARE GOING GOOD. EMILY AND ERICA HAVE SIGNED UP FOR SOFTBALL. EMILY IS MORE EXCITED THAN ERICA. ERICA IS SCARED OF THE BALL SO SHE HAS A TENDENCY TO BACK OUT OF THE BOX. LAST YEAR THE GIRLS AGED 9-12 WERE ON TEAMS. EM AND ER TEAM WERE ALL NEW PLAYERS. THEY WERE SCARED AND WHEN THOSE OLDER GIRLS GOT UP THERE AND THREW THOSE PITCHES, IT REALLY FRIGHTENED THEM. THIS YEAR WILL BE A LITTEL DIFFERENT. THEY ARE HOPING TO SEPERATE THE 9-10 YEAR OLDS AND THEN THE 11-12 YEAR OLDS. I THINK THIS IS A WONDERFUL IDEA. IT GIVES THE YOUNG ONES TIME TO ADJUST.

WE WILL BE TRAVELING THIS YEAR DUE TO THE CHANGE. ITS NOT LIKE WE HAVE TO GO FAR BUT SOME OF THE PARENTS DONT LIKE THAT IDEA. ME..I GO WITH IT BECAUSE I ENJOY SEEING MY GIRLS MINGLE WITH THEIR OWN TEAMMATES AND THE OTHER TEAM ALSO.

I HAVE ALWAYS LOVED BASEBALL/SOFTBALL SEASON. WE HAVE A SMALL TOWN AND IT SEEMS LIKE EVERYONE IS SO INTO THIS SEASON AS WELL. SO MANY FAMILIES ARE OUT THERE. SOME OF THEM I HAVE NEVER SEEN. ITS ALL FOR THE KIDS. IM INTO THE KID THING. ALSO TO SEE SOME PEOPLE THAT I ONLY SEE AT THIS TIME OF THE YEAR.

PRACTICE WILL START IN ABOUT 2 WEEKS. THE GIRLS COACH MR DENNY IS GREAT. LAST YEAR HE TOLD ALL PARENTS THAT HE WAS GONNA BE EASY BUT STERN. AND HE WAS. HE HAS INFORMED US THIS YEAR WILL BE THE SAME BUT THEY NEED TO HAVE A LITTLE MORE DISIPLINE. I MEAN THIS IN THE WAY THAT MORE PRACTICES TO TEACH, LEARNING TO SLIDE. THEY ALL HAVE TO SLIDE AND LIKE I SAID LAST YEAR THEY DIDNT REALLY CALL OUTS DUE TO THE FACT THEY WERE NEW. NO GIVE MES THIS YEAR. TIME TO TOUGHEN UP I RECKON.

WELL I NEED TO GO AND DO SOME STUFF BUT WILL TRY TO KEEP YOU UPDATED MORE OFTEN. WITH SOFTBALL SEASON HERE IM SURE I WILL HAVE ALOT TO SAY.

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Is life sometime this cozy?

I WONDER HOW IN LIFE YOU PASS THINGS BY JUST TO HAVE THEM COME BACK AROUND IN A DIFFERENT LIGHT.

I REALLY CANT ELABERATE ON WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT. I WILL TELL YOU THAT SOMETHING IN MY LIFE THAT I HAVE PUSHED AWAY SEVERAL TIMES PRESENTED ITSELF TO ME A COUPLE OF MONTHS BACK AND FOR SOME REASON I WAS INCLINED TO JUST SEE IF IT "FIT" OR NOT. WELL SO FAR SO GOOD. I REALLY HADN'T NEVER TOOK THE TIME TO SEE THE TRUE "FIT" BUT NOW THAT I HAVE PUT IT ON AND AM STANDING IN FRONT OF THE MIRROR IT LOOKS LIKE IT MIGHT JUST BE A KEEPER. IM NOT QUITE SURE YET SO I THINK I MIGHT JUST STAND HERE FOR A WHILE JUST TO MAKE SURE BEFORE I BUY IT. ONE THING IS FOR SURE....IT LOOKS NICE, FEELS GOOD, AND MAKES ME FEEL BETTER ABOUT LIFE IN GENERAL. ISNT THAT WHY WE GO SHOPPING FOR NEW THINGS. ISNT THAT WHY WE STAND THERE AND TWIRL IN FRONT OF THE MIRROR? SOMETIMES ITS WORTH THE WAIT TO FIND THAT PERFECT "FIT".

COME BACK LATER TO FIND OUT WHAT THE HECK IM TALKING ABOUT. YOU MIGHT FIGURE IT OUT...YOU MIGHT NOT. BELIEVE YOU ME I WISH I COULD FIGURE THIS ONE OUT. I KNOW THAT GOOD THINGS COME TO THOSE WHO WAIT. I HAVE WAITED A LONG LONG TIME FOR THE PERFECT "FIT" SO I HOPE I DONT MAKE A MISTAKE AND PUT IT BACK JUST TO SEE SOMEONE ELSE SNATCH IT UP...UMMM NO DONT THINK SO...THIS I THINK MIGHT BE ONE THAT COMES HOME AND STAYS WITH MOMA...
UNTIL NEXT TIME...I WILL KEEP YOU POSTED ON THE BUY OF THE CENTURY..

Sunday, January 11, 2009

And the future is....

ITS HARD FOR TO ME IMAGINE WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS. I HAVE BEEN WONDERING FOR SO LONG THAT I JUST HAVE MADE UP MY MIND TO RELAX AND LET THE DAYS COME DAY BY DAY.
TO START OFF WITH THAT IS EASIER SAID THAN DONE. ITS THE OBSTACLES IN THE WAYS THAT MAKE IT HARD.

SOME THINGS HAVE CHANGED SINCE MY LAST POST AND THE CHANGES HAVE MADE MY LIFE ...COMPLICATED. I HAVE THOUGHT MANY TIMES TO COME AND POST BUT GOT SIDETRACKED...BAD..

THE CHRISTMAS HOLIDAYS WERE TOUGH. THIS WAS THE FIRST CHRISTMAS WITHOUT MY MOM AND TO THOSE OF YOU WHO HAVE PARENTS STILL WITH YOU...TAKE IN EVERY MOMENT YOU CAN WITH THEM. IT WAS SO HARD LOOKING AT THE HOLIDAYS THE SAME. I DID IT THOUGH. I HAVE TWO LITTLE GIRLS THAT WERE LOOKING FORWARD TO ALL THE GLITZ AND GLAMOUR. THE REAL REASON FOR CHRISTMAS HAS FALLEN SO FAR BEHIND THE BOWS AND PRESENTS THAT HOLIDAYS ARE NOTHING BUT ANOTHER REASON TO COMPLAIN ABOUT NOT HAVING ENOUGH MONEY TO PAY BILLS COME JANUARY. WE ALL (INCLUDING MYSELF) NEED TO FOCUS MORE ON WHAT WE HAVE INSTEAD OF WHAT SOMEONE ELSE CAN WRAP IN PRETTY PAPER AND BOWS.

OK THAT THOUGHT IS GONE. NOW ..THE HOLIDAYS ARE OVER. JANUARY 09 HAS COME AND GOING BY FAST LIKE IN A HURRY. THE NEW PRESIDENT IS ABOUT TO BE SWORN IN AND HISTORY AGAIN IS ABOUT TO BE CHANGED. MY THOUGHTS ON THIS WILL NOT BE WRITTEN DOWN SO IT CANT BE USED AGAINST ME IN A COURT OF LAW. LOL...
THIS IS SOMETHING SOME WILL LEARN FROM AND SOME WILL REGRET. I DO WISH HIM THE WISDOM TO GUIDE THIS COUNTRY IN THE RIGHT WAY. WHETHER ONE VOTED FOR HIM OR NOT HE IS THERE AND HE NEEDS ALL THE PRAYERS HE CAN GET. HE HAS HAD TO STEP INTO A PAIR OF MANS SHOES. WHETHER THEY FIT HIM COMFORTABLE...WELL THEY CAN BE A LOOSE FIT...OR A TIGHT FIT..HE HAS TO CHOOSE HOW HE WEARS THEM EITHER WAY..HECK HE IS THE TYPE TO GO BAREFOOT AND DARE SOMEONE TO SAY ANYTHING...

WELL I DO HOPE EVERYONE HAD A GREAT ENDING OF ONE YEAR AND HAS STARTED THIS YEAR OFF GOOD.