Saturday, February 27, 2010

HOW TIME FLYS..WHEN YOU ARE IN LOVE.

WELL, TODAY ITS BEEN A YEAR THAT CHRIS AND I HAVE OFFICIALLY BEEN TOGETHER. WE STARTED TALKING MONTHS BEFORE (LIKE 4-OCTOBER 08). WE SETTLED ON FEBRUARY 26, 2009 DUE TO THE FACT THAT THIS WAS THE DAY THAT HE STARTED STAYING WITH ME AND THE GIRLS.

I WANT YOU TO UNDERSTAND THAT WE HAD BEEN TALKING BUT WE NEEDED TO GET THE PAST IN ITS CORRECT PLACE. IN THE PAST. I NEEDED TO MAKE SURE THAT MY PAST WAS FINAL AND I WANTED TO GIVE HIM TIME TO DO THE SAME.

ALL OF THAT IS IN THE PAST AND TODAY IS A GOOD DAY. I HAVE LOVED THIS MAN SINCE THE BEGINNING. I KNEW ..WELL MY HEART KNEW THAT HE WAS MY SOUL MATE.

MY HEART IS TAKEN FOR LIFE. I KNOW YOU MUST SAY "ARE YOU SURE?" WELL YES I KNOW THAT HE IS MY BEST FRIEND. HE IS THE ONE HAT I DREAM WITH, LAUGH WITH LIVE FOR AND LOVE.

WE SHARE KIDS FROM DIFFERENT TIMES IN OUR LIVES BUT OUR LOVE HAS BONDED THEM AS IF THEY HAD BEEN BROTHERS AND SISTERS ALL ALONG. I PROMISE YOU THAT THEY FIGHT LIKE IT, BUT LOVE EACHOTHER WHEN ONE IS DOWN.

IT SEEMS LIKE YESTERDAY WHEN CHRIS FIRST TEXT ME AND SAID " I SEE YOU".
HOW IN THE WORLD DID SUCH A SHORT SENTENCE START THE JOURNEY OF A LIFE TIME.

I BOUGHT CHRIS A CARD TODAY THAT SAID THAT SAME THING. THAT EVEN THOUGH I DIDNT KNOW IT AT THE TIME ..MY HEART DID. THAT OUR LIVES ..ALL THE MISTAKES AND ALL THE ACCOMPLISHMENTS ; THE ROADS NO MATTER THE RIGHT OR WRONG TURNS; THEY LED US TO EACHOTHER.

ITS BEEN SUCH A WONDERFUL JOURNEY SO FAR AND I LOOK FORWARD TO THE LONG JOURNEY THAT I HOPE TO HAVE WITH HIM.

HE IS MY SOULMATE, HE IS MY BEST FRIEND, AND I LOVE HIM WITH ALL MY HEART.

THANKS FOR ALL THE MEMORIES WE'VE HAD AND THE MEMORIES THAT ARE TOO COME.

LOVE YOU CHRIS.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

THE PICTURE TO GO WITH PREVIOUS POST


I HAD A HARD TIME WITH THE PICTURE I WANTED EVERYONE TO SEE. YOU KNOW THE "SIGN" PICTURE. I HAVE FINALLY GOT IT WORKING I HOPE AND I THINK YOU ALL WILL GET A GOOD LAUGH AT ME FOR THINKING THE WAY I DO. OK HERE IT IS!
THIS BOY IS AFTER MY HEART. WELL HE KNOWS I LOVE HIM AND HE ALSO KNOWS I LOVE HIS DAD. THANKS MATTHEW THIS MADE MY DAY.!!!!

WHATS IN A NAME...?

SOMETIMES I WANT TO WRITE ABOUT ALOT OF STUFF BUT THE OTHERS I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO WRITE.
THATS THE THING, I HAVE ALOT OF IDEAS ON WHAT TO WRITE BUT TO PUT THEM ON PAPER TO ME SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE. I FEEL LIKE WHAT I HAVE TO SAY ISNT THAT IMPORTANT SO WHY WASTE THE TIME. I KNOW THAT ONE DAY MY KIDS WILL WANT TO KNOW ALL OF WHAT WAS HAPPENING AND HOW I WAS FEELING AND WHAT THEY WERE DOING AND SO FORTH BUT HOW TO MAKE SENSE OF IT ALL AND JOT IT DOWN INTO WORDS...MAN MY BRAIN IS SMOKING ALREADY...LOL

THIS PAST WEEKEND IT SNOWED HERE IN JOHNSONVILLE. IT DOESNT DO THAT MUCH HERE SO THE KIDS WERE LIKE A KID IN A CANDY SHOP. THEY WENT OUTSIDE FRIDAY NIGHT IN THE DARK AND PLAYED. THEY APPARENTLY DIDNT REALIZE THAT SNOW IS ICE AND ONE THING IT IS COLD AND ANOTHER THING IS ITS DOES MELT. THEY CAME TO THE DOOR "WOO ITS COLD...MAN OUR CLOTHES ARE WET" WELL "DUH". WHAT DID MOM SAY? STRIP AT THE DOOR. THEY LOOKED AT ME LIKE I HAD LOST MY MIND. I DIDNT STUDDER SO THEY DID WHAT THEY WERE TOLD. IT WAS KINDA FUNNY TO WATCH. THEY DID ENJOY THEMSELVES THOUGH. THEIR HANDS WERE RED AND FACES WERE TOO. THEY ALL TOOK WARM BATHS TO GET THEIR BODIES BACK TO NORMAL BUT WERE READY TO HEAD OUT AGAIN THE NEXT MORNING. THEY BUILT A SNOWMAN AND WE TOOK PICTURES TO REMEMBER ALL OF IT BY. MATTHEW, OH LORD, MATTHEW. THIS BOY THINKS OF THINGS THAT IT IS NOT POSSIBLE FOR ANOTHER CHILD TO THINK OF. HE COMES IN WITH THE CAMERA AND SHOWS ME A PICTURE OF THE ROOF. YES THE ROOF FACING THE FRONT OF THE HOUSE. THE ONE THAT EVERYONE COMES BY AND CAN SEE. I AM GONNA TRY AND POST A PICTURE OF WHAT HE DID. SO HOPEFULLY I AM SUCCESSFUL ON THAT. IT MADE MY HEART BEAT A LITTLE FASTER. I DO LOVE THAT BOY FOR DOING THAT. ITS JUST A ME THING. AND MAYBE JUST MAYBE A "SIGN"

A SIGN THAT ONE DAY WILL BE TOTALLY COME TRUE.!!!

Thursday, February 4, 2010

WHY? DO YOU HAVE THE ANSWERS

DO YOU EVER WONDER WHY?
WHY WE DID THIS, WHY WE DIDNT DO THIS, WHY DO WE ASK WHY?, ETC.

I JUST SOMETIMES WONDER WHY IT IS THAT I SIT HERE AND TRY TO FIGURE OUT WHAT TO TYPE IN THIS BLOG. I WONDER IF MY KIDS WILL SOMEDAY LOOK BACK WHILE READING THIS AND PICTURE ME ..THIS NIGHT, SITTING ON THE BED, JUST LOVED THEM GOODNIGHT AND LOVING THEM WITH ALL MY HEART. I DO LOVE MY KIDS.

WE ARE A FAMILY AND I HAVE LEARNED TO LOVE MY DAILY LIFE. I HAVE FOUND A POINT IN TIME THAT I AM VERY HAPPY. I THANK CHRIS FOR THAT. HE HAS SHOWED ME THAT LOVE IS NOT JUST ANOTHER EMOTION. IT IS MORE THAN A EMOTION, IT IS A FEELING THAT NOTHING CAN COMPARE TOO.

I WANT EVERYONE THAT READS THIS TO KNOW THAT I NEVER THOUGHT I'D BE THIS HAPPY. I WILL NOT ASK "WHY" ME AND I WILL NOT ASK FOR ANY ANWERS.