And the future is....

ITS HARD FOR TO ME IMAGINE WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS. I HAVE BEEN WONDERING FOR SO LONG THAT I JUST HAVE MADE UP MY MIND TO RELAX AND LET THE DAYS COME DAY BY DAY.
TO START OFF WITH THAT IS EASIER SAID THAN DONE. ITS THE OBSTACLES IN THE WAYS THAT MAKE IT HARD.

SOME THINGS HAVE CHANGED SINCE MY LAST POST AND THE CHANGES HAVE MADE MY LIFE ...COMPLICATED. I HAVE THOUGHT MANY TIMES TO COME AND POST BUT GOT SIDETRACKED...BAD..

THE CHRISTMAS HOLIDAYS WERE TOUGH. THIS WAS THE FIRST CHRISTMAS WITHOUT MY MOM AND TO THOSE OF YOU WHO HAVE PARENTS STILL WITH YOU...TAKE IN EVERY MOMENT YOU CAN WITH THEM. IT WAS SO HARD LOOKING AT THE HOLIDAYS THE SAME. I DID IT THOUGH. I HAVE TWO LITTLE GIRLS THAT WERE LOOKING FORWARD TO ALL THE GLITZ AND GLAMOUR. THE REAL REASON FOR CHRISTMAS HAS FALLEN SO FAR BEHIND THE BOWS AND PRESENTS THAT HOLIDAYS ARE NOTHING BUT ANOTHER REASON TO COMPLAIN ABOUT NOT HAVING ENOUGH MONEY TO PAY BILLS COME JANUARY. WE ALL (INCLUDING MYSELF) NEED TO FOCUS MORE ON WHAT WE HAVE INSTEAD OF WHAT SOMEONE ELSE CAN WRAP IN PRETTY PAPER AND BOWS.

OK THAT THOUGHT IS GONE. NOW ..THE HOLIDAYS ARE OVER. JANUARY 09 HAS COME AND GOING BY FAST LIKE IN A HURRY. THE NEW PRESIDENT IS ABOUT TO BE SWORN IN AND HISTORY AGAIN IS ABOUT TO BE CHANGED. MY THOUGHTS ON THIS WILL NOT BE WRITTEN DOWN SO IT CANT BE USED AGAINST ME IN A COURT OF LAW. LOL...
THIS IS SOMETHING SOME WILL LEARN FROM AND SOME WILL REGRET. I DO WISH HIM THE WISDOM TO GUIDE THIS COUNTRY IN THE RIGHT WAY. WHETHER ONE VOTED FOR HIM OR NOT HE IS THERE AND HE NEEDS ALL THE PRAYERS HE CAN GET. HE HAS HAD TO STEP INTO A PAIR OF MANS SHOES. WHETHER THEY FIT HIM COMFORTABLE...WELL THEY CAN BE A LOOSE FIT...OR A TIGHT FIT..HE HAS TO CHOOSE HOW HE WEARS THEM EITHER WAY..HECK HE IS THE TYPE TO GO BAREFOOT AND DARE SOMEONE TO SAY ANYTHING...

WELL I DO HOPE EVERYONE HAD A GREAT ENDING OF ONE YEAR AND HAS STARTED THIS YEAR OFF GOOD.

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