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JUST THINKING

WE ALL HAVE TIMES THAT WE JUST NEED TO GET SOMETHING THAT IS GONNA DO US GOOD. WELL CHRIS AND I TALKED SEVERAL TIMES IN THE PAST ABOUT LOOKING AROUND FOR ANOTHER RIDE. THE MOTHER SHIP -ARMADA- IS SUCH A GOOD RIDE. SHE STILL LOOKS GOOD AFTER 3 YEARS. WE WANTED SOMETHING THAT GIVES US BETTER GAS MILEAGE AND WE CHOSE TO GET AN ALTIMA (YES ANOTHER NISSAN). THE ALTIMA IS SMALLER AND THE KIDS LOOKED SO CRAMPED BUT THEY LIKE IT. SHE WILL BE USED FOR LONG TRAVELS THAT WE HAVE PLANNED TO DO. WE WELCOME HER WITH OPEN ARMS AND OPEN BANK ACCOUNT. LOL THINGS HERE HAVE BEEN GOING WELL. THE TWINS ARE PLAYING SOFTBALL AND SEEM TO ENJOY IT SO MUCH. EMILY IS THE CATCHER AND I SEE HER LEARNING MORE AT EACH GAME. SHE WILL THROW THAT MASK OF AND GRAB THAT BALL AND HOLD IT LIKE SHE DARES SOMEONE TO TRY HER. ERICA IS PLAYING THE FIELD. LITERALLY. SHE HAS BEEN PLAYING OUTFIELD, AND INFIELD. COACH DENNY IS MAKING HER VERSATILE. I ENJOY WATCHING THEM PLAY. IT MAKES MY HEART JUST BURST FROM EXCITEMENT AND JOY.

WHY CANT I THINK?

I OFTEN WANT TO WRITE ON HERE BUT SELDOM DO I FEEL I HAVE MUCH TO SAY THAT IS WORTH SAYING. DONT GET ME WRONG I CAN TALK AND I CAN TYPE BUT I FEEL THAT WHAT I AM THINKING ISNT WHAT SOMEONE WOULD WANT TO READ. I LIVE MY LIFE AS EASILY AS I CAN AND LOVE MY FAMILY AND MY FRIENDS. I DO THE NORMAL EVERYDAY STUFF. I WAKE UP ( WITH THE BLESSING OF THE LORD) AND I GET THE KIDS UP FOR THEM TO GET READY FOR SCHOOL. I CARRY THEM TO SCHOOL. THE GIRLS STILL RIDE WITH ME. MATTHEW, WELL HE HAS STARTED RIDING THE BUS BECAUSE HE THINKS THAT WE GIRLS ARE TOO SLOW AND HE WANTS TO GET TO SCHOOL EARLIER. THIS DOES NOT BOTHER ME IN THE LEAST BECAUSE IT GIVES HIM A RESPONSIBILITY OF GETTING UP AND BEING READY BEFORE A CERTAIN TIME. THE GIRLS ..WELL THEY STILL SLACK A LITTLE SOME MORNINGS BUT SO DO I. THEY SO THEIR THING AND WE MEET AT THE BACK DOOR. I NEVER HEAR ANY COMPLAINTS UNLESS ITS ME RUNNING LATE. I STILL NEED TO FIGURE OUT WHY IT IS THEY ARE SO INTENT ON GETTING TO SCHOOL SO EARLY. I HAVE

HOW TIME FLYS..WHEN YOU ARE IN LOVE.

WELL, TODAY ITS BEEN A YEAR THAT CHRIS AND I HAVE OFFICIALLY BEEN TOGETHER. WE STARTED TALKING MONTHS BEFORE (LIKE 4-OCTOBER 08). WE SETTLED ON FEBRUARY 26, 2009 DUE TO THE FACT THAT THIS WAS THE DAY THAT HE STARTED STAYING WITH ME AND THE GIRLS. I WANT YOU TO UNDERSTAND THAT WE HAD BEEN TALKING BUT WE NEEDED TO GET THE PAST IN ITS CORRECT PLACE. IN THE PAST. I NEEDED TO MAKE SURE THAT MY PAST WAS FINAL AND I WANTED TO GIVE HIM TIME TO DO THE SAME. ALL OF THAT IS IN THE PAST AND TODAY IS A GOOD DAY. I HAVE LOVED THIS MAN SINCE THE BEGINNING. I KNEW ..WELL MY HEART KNEW THAT HE WAS MY SOUL MATE. MY HEART IS TAKEN FOR LIFE. I KNOW YOU MUST SAY "ARE YOU SURE?" WELL YES I KNOW THAT HE IS MY BEST FRIEND. HE IS THE ONE HAT I DREAM WITH, LAUGH WITH LIVE FOR AND LOVE. WE SHARE KIDS FROM DIFFERENT TIMES IN OUR LIVES BUT OUR LOVE HAS BONDED THEM AS IF THEY HAD BEEN BROTHERS AND SISTERS ALL ALONG. I PROMISE YOU THAT THEY FIGHT LIKE IT, BUT LOVE EACHOTHER WHEN ONE IS DOWN. IT SEEMS LIKE

THE PICTURE TO GO WITH PREVIOUS POST

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I HAD A HARD TIME WITH THE PICTURE I WANTED EVERYONE TO SEE. YOU KNOW THE "SIGN" PICTURE. I HAVE FINALLY GOT IT WORKING I HOPE AND I THINK YOU ALL WILL GET A GOOD LAUGH AT ME FOR THINKING THE WAY I DO. OK HERE IT IS! THIS BOY IS AFTER MY HEART. WELL HE KNOWS I LOVE HIM AND HE ALSO KNOWS I LOVE HIS DAD. THANKS MATTHEW THIS MADE MY DAY.!!!!

WHATS IN A NAME...?

SOMETIMES I WANT TO WRITE ABOUT ALOT OF STUFF BUT THE OTHERS I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO WRITE. THATS THE THING, I HAVE ALOT OF IDEAS ON WHAT TO WRITE BUT TO PUT THEM ON PAPER TO ME SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE. I FEEL LIKE WHAT I HAVE TO SAY ISNT THAT IMPORTANT SO WHY WASTE THE TIME. I KNOW THAT ONE DAY MY KIDS WILL WANT TO KNOW ALL OF WHAT WAS HAPPENING AND HOW I WAS FEELING AND WHAT THEY WERE DOING AND SO FORTH BUT HOW TO MAKE SENSE OF IT ALL AND JOT IT DOWN INTO WORDS...MAN MY BRAIN IS SMOKING ALREADY...LOL THIS PAST WEEKEND IT SNOWED HERE IN JOHNSONVILLE. IT DOESNT DO THAT MUCH HERE SO THE KIDS WERE LIKE A KID IN A CANDY SHOP. THEY WENT OUTSIDE FRIDAY NIGHT IN THE DARK AND PLAYED. THEY APPARENTLY DIDNT REALIZE THAT SNOW IS ICE AND ONE THING IT IS COLD AND ANOTHER THING IS ITS DOES MELT. THEY CAME TO THE DOOR "WOO ITS COLD...MAN OUR CLOTHES ARE WET" WELL "DUH". WHAT DID MOM SAY? STRIP AT THE DOOR. THEY LOOKED AT ME LIKE I HAD LOST MY MIND. I DIDNT STUDDER SO THE

WHY? DO YOU HAVE THE ANSWERS

DO YOU EVER WONDER WHY? WHY WE DID THIS, WHY WE DIDNT DO THIS, WHY DO WE ASK WHY?, ETC. I JUST SOMETIMES WONDER WHY IT IS THAT I SIT HERE AND TRY TO FIGURE OUT WHAT TO TYPE IN THIS BLOG. I WONDER IF MY KIDS WILL SOMEDAY LOOK BACK WHILE READING THIS AND PICTURE ME ..THIS NIGHT, SITTING ON THE BED, JUST LOVED THEM GOODNIGHT AND LOVING THEM WITH ALL MY HEART. I DO LOVE MY KIDS. WE ARE A FAMILY AND I HAVE LEARNED TO LOVE MY DAILY LIFE. I HAVE FOUND A POINT IN TIME THAT I AM VERY HAPPY. I THANK CHRIS FOR THAT. HE HAS SHOWED ME THAT LOVE IS NOT JUST ANOTHER EMOTION. IT IS MORE THAN A EMOTION, IT IS A FEELING THAT NOTHING CAN COMPARE TOO. I WANT EVERYONE THAT READS THIS TO KNOW THAT I NEVER THOUGHT I'D BE THIS HAPPY. I WILL NOT ASK "WHY" ME AND I WILL NOT ASK FOR ANY ANWERS.

SORRY FOR THE DELAY

ITS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I HAVE EVEN THOUGHT ABOUT POSTING. IT SEEMS TO ME THAT THE MORE I WANT TO DO SOMETHING THE LESS I DO. SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED AROUND HERE THAT I HONESTLY DONT THINK I HAVE ENOUGH SPACE TO TELL IT ALL. I THINK THE BEST THING TO DO IS JUST TELL WHAT I CAN THINK ABOUT AT THE MOMENT AND JUST HAVE A CONTINUATION LATER. ALL IS WELL HERE TO START OFF WITH. WE HAVE COME A LONG WAY SINCE THE LAST TIME I WROTE. THANKSGIVING HAS COME AND GONE, CHRISTMAS HAS COME AND GONE, THE NEW YEAR HAS COME IN AND ALREADY THE TIME IS PASSING BY SO QUICKLY. ITS ALMOST THE END OF JANUARY AND I FEEL LIKE I JUST GOT OFF THE ROLLERCOASTER RIDE CALLED THE HOLIDAYS. JUST A NOTE THOUGH; THE HOLIDAYS WERE GREAT. I COOKED THANKSGIVING DINNER AND WE ALL ATE TIL WE WERE ABOUT TO POP. CHRISTMAS WAS HERE BEFORE WE KNEW IT. MATTHEW WENT TO HIS MOMS FOR CHRISTMAS SO IT WAS LIKE A PIECE OF THE PIE WAS MISSING BUT WE CONTINUED ON AS BEST WE COULD. THE NEW YEAR CAME IN AND CHRIS AND I SAID OUR FIR