WHATS IN A NAME...?

SOMETIMES I WANT TO WRITE ABOUT ALOT OF STUFF BUT THE OTHERS I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO WRITE.
THATS THE THING, I HAVE ALOT OF IDEAS ON WHAT TO WRITE BUT TO PUT THEM ON PAPER TO ME SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE. I FEEL LIKE WHAT I HAVE TO SAY ISNT THAT IMPORTANT SO WHY WASTE THE TIME. I KNOW THAT ONE DAY MY KIDS WILL WANT TO KNOW ALL OF WHAT WAS HAPPENING AND HOW I WAS FEELING AND WHAT THEY WERE DOING AND SO FORTH BUT HOW TO MAKE SENSE OF IT ALL AND JOT IT DOWN INTO WORDS...MAN MY BRAIN IS SMOKING ALREADY...LOL

THIS PAST WEEKEND IT SNOWED HERE IN JOHNSONVILLE. IT DOESNT DO THAT MUCH HERE SO THE KIDS WERE LIKE A KID IN A CANDY SHOP. THEY WENT OUTSIDE FRIDAY NIGHT IN THE DARK AND PLAYED. THEY APPARENTLY DIDNT REALIZE THAT SNOW IS ICE AND ONE THING IT IS COLD AND ANOTHER THING IS ITS DOES MELT. THEY CAME TO THE DOOR "WOO ITS COLD...MAN OUR CLOTHES ARE WET" WELL "DUH". WHAT DID MOM SAY? STRIP AT THE DOOR. THEY LOOKED AT ME LIKE I HAD LOST MY MIND. I DIDNT STUDDER SO THEY DID WHAT THEY WERE TOLD. IT WAS KINDA FUNNY TO WATCH. THEY DID ENJOY THEMSELVES THOUGH. THEIR HANDS WERE RED AND FACES WERE TOO. THEY ALL TOOK WARM BATHS TO GET THEIR BODIES BACK TO NORMAL BUT WERE READY TO HEAD OUT AGAIN THE NEXT MORNING. THEY BUILT A SNOWMAN AND WE TOOK PICTURES TO REMEMBER ALL OF IT BY. MATTHEW, OH LORD, MATTHEW. THIS BOY THINKS OF THINGS THAT IT IS NOT POSSIBLE FOR ANOTHER CHILD TO THINK OF. HE COMES IN WITH THE CAMERA AND SHOWS ME A PICTURE OF THE ROOF. YES THE ROOF FACING THE FRONT OF THE HOUSE. THE ONE THAT EVERYONE COMES BY AND CAN SEE. I AM GONNA TRY AND POST A PICTURE OF WHAT HE DID. SO HOPEFULLY I AM SUCCESSFUL ON THAT. IT MADE MY HEART BEAT A LITTLE FASTER. I DO LOVE THAT BOY FOR DOING THAT. ITS JUST A ME THING. AND MAYBE JUST MAYBE A "SIGN"

A SIGN THAT ONE DAY WILL BE TOTALLY COME TRUE.!!!

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