FIRST DAY JITTERS

TODAY I STARTED A NEW JOB. I HAVE BEEN PREPARING FOR THIS NEW POSITION FOR THE PAST MONTH. THIS JOB POSITION IS A OLD/ NEW CAREER FOR ME. YOU SEE OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL I WENT DIRECTLY INTO THE MEDICAL FIELD. I HAVE WORKED IN THE MEDICAL FIELD OFF AND ON SINCE THEN UP UNTIL THE BIRTH OF MY TWIN GIRLS. AT THAT TIME I MADE THE DECISION TO STAY HOME WHERE I WAS NEEDED MORE. I HAVE NEVER REGRETTED CHANGING FROM WORKING MOM TO STAY AT HOME MOM. IT WAS A TIME THAT I COULD HAVE NEVER IMAGINED NOT DOING. THE FIRST SMILES, THE FIRST STEPS ...AND ALL THE FIRST THAT I WOULD HAVE MISSED. MAN, I REALLY CANT IMAGINE.

AS THE YEARS HAVE PASSED ME BY I STARTED TO GET INTO THE WORKING WORLD AGAIN. IT STARTED SLOWLY AND BECAME A RAT RACE I CALLED EVERYDAY LIFE. IT WASNT LONG BEFORE THINGS SLOWED ME DOWN AGAIN AND I DECIDED I WAS NEEDED AT HOME AGAIN. SO ...I CAME HOME FOR A SHORT WHILE. I HAVE HAD AN OPPORTUNITY TO WORK FROM HOME DOING A SECOND CAREER THAT I PICKED UP ALONG THE ROAD OF LIFE. IT HAS BEEN MARVELOUS. SEEING MY TWO GIRLS GET OFF THE BUS AND SMILE WHEN THEY SEE ME STANDING THERE WATCHING AS THEY GROW UP RIGHT BEFORE MY EYES. THEY HAVE GROWN UP SO FAST.

SO BACK TO THE NEW JOB. I HAVE BEEN TRYING FOR AWHILE TO FIND A PART TIME JOB THAT WAS JUST RIGHT. I HAVE HAD THE "TOO HOT" JOB ..THE "TOO COLD" JOB..AND JUST HAD NOT FOUND THAT JOB THAT WAS "JUST RIGHT". I WAS CONTENT AT HOME. WHY MESS UP A GOOD THING. WELL ...THE OLE SAYING THAT WHEN YOU QUIT LOOKING HAS COME INTO PLAY. I WAS AT HOME AND GOT A PHONE CALL THAT HAS PLAYED OUT TO ME GOING BACK INTO THE MEDICAL FIELD WHERE I TRULY BELEIVE MY HEART IS.

I WILL BE IN A DR'S OFFICE, AND IN THIS DR'S OFFICE I WILL BE MY OWN "BOSS" I GUESS YOU COULD SAY. I WILL BE WORKING FOR A COUNTRY WIDE LAB AND ONCE TRAINED I WILL BE ON MY OWN. I WILL BE INSIDE THE DR'S OFFICE BUT WILL NOT BE EMPLOYED BY THEM. ANYWAY...BLAH BLAH BLAH...

TO GET TO MY POINT ...I LEFT HOME THIS MORNING WITH MY NERVES MAKING MY STOMACH DO FLIPS. I ARRIVED EARLY TO MAKE A GOOD IMPRESSION AND THE DAY STARTED WELL. ACTUALLY I ENJOYED MY FIRST DAY. GO FIGURE. SO I HAVE PUSHED MY JITTERS ASIDE AND DECIDED TO ENJOY THIS JOB. ITS WHAT IVE WANTED AND WHAT I HAVE ALWAYS LOVED TO DO. MY DESTINY? WELL, WE WILL HAVE TO WAIT AND SEE, BUT FOR NOW I AM SMILING.

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Miss Hope said…
Good for you!! I'm so proud of you, girl.
October 21, 2008 at 5:01 PM
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