tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-26749009181826271112024-02-18T21:39:48.344-05:00LU'S SWEET ICE TEAITS THE LITTLE THINGS IN LIFE THAT MAKE YOU GET UP EACH MORNING SMILING. KEEPING THINGS SIMPLE IS THE KEY.Lusbuckhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343090039419314663noreply@blogger.comBlogger26125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2674900918182627111.post-18629195077700403092010-04-22T15:21:00.003-04:002010-04-22T15:39:35.739-04:00JUST THINKINGWE ALL HAVE TIMES THAT WE JUST NEED TO GET SOMETHING THAT IS GONNA DO US GOOD.<br /><br />WELL CHRIS AND I TALKED SEVERAL TIMES IN THE PAST ABOUT LOOKING AROUND FOR ANOTHER RIDE. THE MOTHER SHIP -ARMADA- IS SUCH A GOOD RIDE. SHE STILL LOOKS GOOD AFTER 3 YEARS. WE WANTED SOMETHING THAT GIVES US BETTER GAS MILEAGE AND WE CHOSE TO GET AN <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">ALTIMA</span> (YES ANOTHER NISSAN). THE <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">ALTIMA</span> IS SMALLER AND THE KIDS LOOKED SO CRAMPED BUT THEY LIKE IT. SHE WILL BE USED FOR LONG TRAVELS THAT WE HAVE PLANNED TO DO. WE WELCOME HER WITH OPEN ARMS AND OPEN BANK ACCOUNT. <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">LOL</span><br /><br />THINGS HERE HAVE BEEN GOING WELL. THE TWINS ARE PLAYING SOFTBALL AND SEEM TO ENJOY IT SO MUCH. EMILY IS THE CATCHER AND I SEE HER LEARNING MORE AT EACH GAME. SHE WILL THROW THAT MASK OF AND GRAB THAT BALL AND HOLD IT LIKE SHE DARES SOMEONE TO TRY HER. ERICA IS PLAYING THE FIELD. LITERALLY. SHE HAS BEEN PLAYING OUTFIELD, AND INFIELD. COACH DENNY IS MAKING HER VERSATILE. I ENJOY WATCHING THEM PLAY. IT MAKES MY HEART JUST BURST FROM EXCITEMENT AND JOY.<br /><br />CHRIS AND I ARE DOING GREAT. OUR RELATIONSHIP IS GROWING EACH AND EVERY DAY. I CANT AT THIS POINT IMAGINE WHAT LIFE WOULD BE LIKE WITHOUT HIM IN IT. WE ARE A COUPLE THAT I SEE TOGETHER FOREVER. IT FEELS GREAT TO HAVE SOMEONE THAT MAKES YOUR LIVER QUIVER. (JUST AN OLD SAYING)<br /><br />WELL I SIT HERE WAITING ON THE GIRLS TO GET HOME FROM SCHOOL AND I REALIZE THAT THIS IS WHAT DREAMS ARE MADE OF. THE KIDS, AND A MAN THAT MAKES YOUR WORLD GO AROUND.Lusbuckhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343090039419314663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2674900918182627111.post-83113025477124677432010-03-15T22:15:00.002-04:002010-03-15T22:32:00.574-04:00WHY CANT I THINK?I OFTEN WANT TO WRITE ON HERE BUT SELDOM DO I FEEL I HAVE MUCH TO SAY THAT IS WORTH SAYING. DONT GET ME WRONG I CAN TALK AND I CAN TYPE BUT I FEEL THAT WHAT I AM THINKING ISNT WHAT SOMEONE WOULD WANT TO READ.<br /><br />I LIVE MY LIFE AS EASILY AS I CAN AND LOVE MY FAMILY AND MY FRIENDS. I DO THE NORMAL EVERYDAY STUFF. I WAKE UP ( WITH THE BLESSING OF THE LORD) AND I GET THE KIDS UP FOR THEM TO GET READY FOR SCHOOL. I CARRY THEM TO SCHOOL. THE GIRLS STILL RIDE WITH ME. MATTHEW, WELL HE HAS STARTED RIDING THE BUS BECAUSE HE THINKS THAT WE GIRLS ARE TOO SLOW AND HE WANTS TO GET TO SCHOOL EARLIER. THIS DOES NOT BOTHER ME IN THE LEAST BECAUSE IT GIVES HIM A RESPONSIBILITY OF GETTING UP AND BEING READY BEFORE A CERTAIN TIME.<br /><br />THE GIRLS ..WELL THEY STILL SLACK A LITTLE SOME MORNINGS BUT SO DO I. THEY SO THEIR THING AND WE MEET AT THE BACK DOOR. I NEVER HEAR ANY COMPLAINTS UNLESS ITS ME RUNNING LATE. I STILL NEED TO FIGURE OUT WHY IT IS THEY ARE SO INTENT ON GETTING TO SCHOOL SO EARLY. I HAVE TRIED TO EXTEND MY EAR ON SOME OF THEIR LITTLE CONVERSATIONS AND I QUICKLY START NODDING MY HEAD WHEN I HEAR THEM TALK ABOUT BOYS. THEY ARE "DATING" THIS PERSON AND THAT PERSON. I DONT SAY MUCH BECAUSE I KNOW THEY ARE STILL TOO YOUNG TO REALLY UNDERSTAND THE CONCEPT. THEY ALL NOW HAVE A NEW LINGO FOR THINGS SO AS A PARENT I LISTEN AND INTERRUPT WHEN NECESSARY. I THINK THEY JUST WANT TO SOCIALIZE THOUGH. I CANT SAY MUCH, I LIKED TO TALK TOO. IN FACT, I GOT IN THE MOST TROUBLE FOR TALKING . <br /><br />I WRITE ON THIS BLOG THINGS THAT I JUST THINK ABOUT. IT MIGHT NOT BE APPROPRIATE OR IT MIGHT NOT BE INTERESTING TO ANYONE BUT ME. AT THE TIME OF TYPING ITS WHAT IM THINKING. INTERESTING OR NOT!!! ITS MY MIND AT WORK.Lusbuckhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343090039419314663noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2674900918182627111.post-52419188970550876232010-02-27T21:19:00.003-05:002010-02-27T21:49:10.121-05:00HOW TIME FLYS..WHEN YOU ARE IN LOVE.WELL, TODAY ITS BEEN A YEAR THAT CHRIS AND I HAVE OFFICIALLY BEEN TOGETHER. WE STARTED TALKING MONTHS BEFORE (LIKE 4-OCTOBER 08). WE SETTLED ON FEBRUARY 26, 2009 DUE TO THE FACT THAT THIS WAS THE DAY THAT HE STARTED STAYING WITH ME AND THE GIRLS.<br /><br />I WANT YOU TO UNDERSTAND THAT WE HAD BEEN TALKING BUT WE NEEDED TO GET THE PAST IN ITS CORRECT PLACE. IN THE PAST. I NEEDED TO MAKE SURE THAT MY PAST WAS FINAL AND I WANTED TO GIVE HIM TIME TO DO THE SAME. <br /><br />ALL OF THAT IS IN THE PAST AND TODAY IS A GOOD DAY. I HAVE LOVED THIS MAN SINCE THE BEGINNING. I KNEW ..WELL MY HEART KNEW THAT HE WAS MY SOUL MATE.<br /><br />MY HEART IS TAKEN FOR LIFE. I KNOW YOU MUST SAY "ARE YOU SURE?" WELL YES I KNOW THAT HE IS MY BEST FRIEND. HE IS THE ONE HAT I DREAM WITH, LAUGH WITH LIVE FOR AND LOVE.<br /><br />WE SHARE KIDS FROM DIFFERENT TIMES IN OUR LIVES BUT OUR LOVE HAS BONDED THEM AS IF THEY HAD BEEN BROTHERS AND SISTERS ALL ALONG. I PROMISE YOU THAT THEY FIGHT LIKE IT, BUT LOVE EACHOTHER WHEN ONE IS DOWN.<br /><br />IT SEEMS LIKE YESTERDAY WHEN CHRIS FIRST TEXT ME AND SAID " I SEE YOU".<br />HOW IN THE WORLD DID SUCH A SHORT SENTENCE START THE JOURNEY OF A LIFE TIME.<br /><br />I BOUGHT CHRIS A CARD TODAY THAT SAID THAT SAME THING. THAT EVEN THOUGH I DIDNT KNOW IT AT THE TIME ..MY HEART DID. THAT OUR LIVES ..ALL THE MISTAKES AND ALL THE ACCOMPLISHMENTS ; THE ROADS NO MATTER THE RIGHT OR WRONG TURNS; THEY LED US TO EACHOTHER.<br /><br />ITS BEEN SUCH A WONDERFUL JOURNEY SO FAR AND I LOOK FORWARD TO THE LONG JOURNEY THAT I HOPE TO HAVE WITH HIM.<br /><br />HE IS MY SOULMATE, HE IS MY BEST FRIEND, AND I LOVE HIM WITH ALL MY HEART.<br /><br />THANKS FOR ALL THE MEMORIES WE'VE HAD AND THE MEMORIES THAT ARE TOO COME.<br /><br />LOVE YOU CHRIS.Lusbuckhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343090039419314663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2674900918182627111.post-57345983077324554002010-02-16T18:36:00.003-05:002010-02-16T18:40:45.026-05:00THE PICTURE TO GO WITH PREVIOUS POST<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEguDUg0ez6QF1u1zF-9PXfaEk7cJJTqc7E03Uqa8lDs-6QMyIcWmUD2eMi5_5pwYtPsWX2KiHszoR0P8RMFzX_xS8XRg_ZpbP_qKgPT3RQNTM0FW0a0vfc54xVHQp8ag-D-cqAyCkFlTuA/s1600-h/snow+of+feb+10+033.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5438990011707003250" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEguDUg0ez6QF1u1zF-9PXfaEk7cJJTqc7E03Uqa8lDs-6QMyIcWmUD2eMi5_5pwYtPsWX2KiHszoR0P8RMFzX_xS8XRg_ZpbP_qKgPT3RQNTM0FW0a0vfc54xVHQp8ag-D-cqAyCkFlTuA/s400/snow+of+feb+10+033.jpg" /></a><br />I HAD A HARD TIME WITH THE PICTURE I WANTED EVERYONE TO SEE. YOU KNOW THE "SIGN" PICTURE. I HAVE FINALLY GOT IT WORKING I HOPE AND I THINK YOU ALL WILL GET A GOOD LAUGH AT ME FOR THINKING THE WAY I DO. OK HERE IT IS!<br />THIS BOY IS AFTER MY HEART. WELL HE KNOWS I LOVE HIM AND HE ALSO KNOWS I LOVE HIS DAD. THANKS MATTHEW THIS MADE MY DAY.!!!!Lusbuckhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343090039419314663noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2674900918182627111.post-80175160739138721402010-02-16T17:54:00.003-05:002010-02-27T21:47:23.374-05:00WHATS IN A NAME...?SOMETIMES I WANT TO WRITE ABOUT ALOT OF STUFF BUT THE OTHERS I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO WRITE.
<br />THATS THE THING, I HAVE ALOT OF IDEAS ON WHAT TO WRITE BUT TO PUT THEM ON PAPER TO ME SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE. I FEEL LIKE WHAT I HAVE TO SAY ISNT THAT IMPORTANT SO WHY WASTE THE TIME. I KNOW THAT ONE DAY MY KIDS WILL WANT TO KNOW ALL OF WHAT WAS HAPPENING AND HOW I WAS FEELING AND WHAT THEY WERE DOING AND SO FORTH BUT HOW TO MAKE SENSE OF IT ALL AND JOT IT DOWN INTO WORDS...MAN MY BRAIN IS SMOKING ALREADY...LOL
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<br />THIS PAST WEEKEND IT SNOWED HERE IN JOHNSONVILLE. IT DOESNT DO THAT MUCH HERE SO THE KIDS WERE LIKE A KID IN A CANDY SHOP. THEY WENT OUTSIDE FRIDAY NIGHT IN THE DARK AND PLAYED. THEY APPARENTLY DIDNT REALIZE THAT SNOW IS ICE AND ONE THING IT IS COLD AND ANOTHER THING IS ITS DOES MELT. THEY CAME TO THE DOOR "WOO ITS COLD...MAN OUR CLOTHES ARE WET" WELL "DUH". WHAT DID MOM SAY? STRIP AT THE DOOR. THEY LOOKED AT ME LIKE I HAD LOST MY MIND. I DIDNT STUDDER SO THEY DID WHAT THEY WERE TOLD. IT WAS KINDA FUNNY TO WATCH. THEY DID ENJOY THEMSELVES THOUGH. THEIR HANDS WERE RED AND FACES WERE TOO. THEY ALL TOOK WARM BATHS TO GET THEIR BODIES BACK TO NORMAL BUT WERE READY TO HEAD OUT AGAIN THE NEXT MORNING. THEY BUILT A SNOWMAN AND WE TOOK PICTURES TO REMEMBER ALL OF IT BY. MATTHEW, OH LORD, MATTHEW. THIS BOY THINKS OF THINGS THAT IT IS NOT POSSIBLE FOR ANOTHER CHILD TO THINK OF. HE COMES IN WITH THE CAMERA AND SHOWS ME A PICTURE OF THE ROOF. YES THE ROOF FACING THE FRONT OF THE HOUSE. THE ONE THAT EVERYONE COMES BY AND CAN SEE. I AM GONNA TRY AND POST A PICTURE OF WHAT HE DID. SO HOPEFULLY I AM SUCCESSFUL ON THAT. IT MADE MY HEART BEAT A LITTLE FASTER. I DO LOVE THAT BOY FOR DOING THAT. ITS JUST A ME THING. AND MAYBE JUST MAYBE A "SIGN"
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<br />A SIGN THAT ONE DAY WILL BE TOTALLY COME TRUE.!!!Lusbuckhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343090039419314663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2674900918182627111.post-7873787750505432532010-02-04T21:48:00.003-05:002010-02-07T19:26:23.734-05:00WHY? DO YOU HAVE THE ANSWERSDO YOU EVER WONDER WHY?<br />WHY WE DID THIS, WHY WE DIDNT DO THIS, WHY DO WE ASK WHY?, ETC.<br /><br />I JUST SOMETIMES WONDER WHY IT IS THAT I SIT HERE AND TRY TO FIGURE OUT WHAT TO TYPE IN THIS BLOG. I WONDER IF MY KIDS WILL SOMEDAY LOOK BACK WHILE READING THIS AND PICTURE ME ..THIS NIGHT, SITTING ON THE BED, JUST LOVED THEM GOODNIGHT AND LOVING THEM WITH ALL MY HEART. I DO LOVE MY KIDS. <br /><br />WE ARE A FAMILY AND I HAVE LEARNED TO LOVE MY DAILY LIFE. I HAVE FOUND A POINT IN TIME THAT I AM VERY HAPPY. I THANK CHRIS FOR THAT. HE HAS SHOWED ME THAT LOVE IS NOT JUST ANOTHER EMOTION. IT IS MORE THAN A EMOTION, IT IS A FEELING THAT NOTHING CAN COMPARE TOO. <br /><br />I WANT EVERYONE THAT READS THIS TO KNOW THAT I NEVER THOUGHT I'D BE THIS HAPPY. I WILL NOT ASK "WHY" ME AND I WILL NOT ASK FOR ANY ANWERS.Lusbuckhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343090039419314663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2674900918182627111.post-60010705258910574482010-01-27T21:07:00.002-05:002010-01-27T21:41:28.322-05:00SORRY FOR THE DELAYITS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I HAVE EVEN THOUGHT ABOUT POSTING. IT SEEMS TO ME THAT THE MORE I WANT TO DO SOMETHING THE LESS I DO. <br />SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED AROUND HERE THAT I HONESTLY DONT THINK I HAVE ENOUGH SPACE TO TELL IT ALL. <br />I THINK THE BEST THING TO DO IS JUST TELL WHAT I CAN THINK ABOUT AT THE MOMENT AND JUST HAVE A CONTINUATION LATER. <br /><br />ALL IS WELL HERE TO START OFF WITH. WE HAVE COME A LONG WAY SINCE THE LAST TIME I WROTE.<br /><br />THANKSGIVING HAS COME AND GONE, CHRISTMAS HAS COME AND GONE, THE NEW YEAR HAS COME IN AND ALREADY THE TIME IS PASSING BY SO QUICKLY. ITS ALMOST THE END OF JANUARY AND I FEEL LIKE I JUST GOT OFF THE ROLLERCOASTER RIDE CALLED THE HOLIDAYS. JUST A NOTE THOUGH; THE HOLIDAYS WERE GREAT. I COOKED THANKSGIVING DINNER AND WE ALL ATE TIL WE WERE ABOUT TO POP. CHRISTMAS WAS HERE BEFORE WE KNEW IT. MATTHEW WENT TO HIS MOMS FOR CHRISTMAS SO IT WAS LIKE A PIECE OF THE PIE WAS MISSING BUT WE CONTINUED ON AS BEST WE COULD. THE NEW YEAR CAME IN AND CHRIS AND I SAID OUR FIRST "HAPPY NEW YEARS" TO EACH OTHER. MIND YOU IT WAS OVER THE PHONE DUE TO THE FACT THAT HE HAD TO WORK NIGHT SHIFT AT WORK BUT ALL IN ALL IT MEANT THE SAME.<br /><br />SO NOW TO THE PRESENT TIME. <br /><br />CHRIS AND I ARE DOING GREAT. WE HAVE EMBARKED ON OUR 11 MONTHS TOGETHER AND ARE STILL GOING STRONG. ITS STILL HARD FOR ME TO IMAGINE THAT I HAVE FOUND MY SOULMATE.<br />MY BEST FRIEND. MY HEART AND SOUL. BUT I HAVE AND I AM NOT GOING TO ARGUE ONE BIT.<br /><br />THE KIDS ARE DOING WELL IN SCHOOL. THE GRADES ARE OK. <br /><br />MATTHEW IS STARTING TRACK PRACTICE MONDAY. HOW THAT BOY LIKES TO RUN. HIS DAD AND I HAVE BEEN GETTING ON HIM AND MAKING HIM RUN FOR A COUPLE OF MONTHS NOW SO HE WOULDNT BE SO OUT OF SORTS WHEN HE STARTED THE REAL THING. ONE DAY HE WILL THANK US FOR WHAT WE DID. HE IS GOOD AT WHAT HE DOES AND OF COURSE WE ALL WILL BE THERE CHEERING HIM ON. THE ONE BAD THING ABOUT TRACK IS IT IS ONE OF THE HOTTEST SPORTS OF ALL. LAST YEAR AT LOWER STATE I THOUGHT MY BACON WAS GONNA FRY OUT THERE. JUST MY THOUGHTS<br /><br />EMILY AND ERICA ARE DOING GREAT BEING SEPERATED THIS YEAR. THEY HAVE GOT INTO THEIR OWN LITTLE GROVE WITH THEIR OWN FRIENDS. MOST OF THE FRIENDS ARE MUTUAL BUT A COUPLE ARE JUST THEIRS TO CALL THEIR OWN.<br /><br />EMILY DID GREAT WITH THE CHEERLEADING THIS YEAR. SHE GOT OUT THERE AND CHEERED LIKE A VETERAN CHEERLEADER. SHE LOOKED AS PRETTY AS ANYOTHER CHEERLEADER EVER HAS. I WAS VERY PROUD OF HER.<br /><br />ERICA HAS FOUND HER CALLING, I THINK. SHE STARTED THIS YEAR WITH VOLLEYBALL. SHE GOT OUT THERE ON THAT COURT AND IT WAS LIKE SHE WAS BORN THERE. SHE SERVED JUST AS WELL AS ANYONE COULD. SHE GOT SO MANY COMPLIMENTS ABOUT HER ABILITY TO PLAY SO WELL THAT MY HEAD WAS SWELLING. I THINK SHE LIKED IT TOO. WHO WOULDNT?<br /><br />JEFF IS DOING GOOD. HE HAS BEEN INCARCERATED BUT IT WAS THE BEST THING THAT COULD HAVE HAPPENED. CANDACE AND I WENT TO SEE HIM MONDAY AND I LOOKED AT MY SON IN A DIFFERENT WAY. HE WAS SO CONTENT. HE KNEW THAT HE WAS THERE BECAUSE OF WHAT HE HAD DONE AND NOONE ELSE AND HE IS DOING WHAT HE HAS TO DO TO GET HIS LIFE BACK ON TRACK. HE MADE MISTAKES AND NOW HE IS FOLLOWING THE ROAD TO THE GOOD LIFE. I PRAY FOR HIM EVERYDAY AND MISS HIM SO MUCH IT HURTS. I FEEL HURT BUT I KNOW MY SON IS SAFE. I LOVE HIM. NO MORE WORDS NEED TO BE SAID.<br /><br />NEEDLESS TO SAY TIME HAS PASSED AND ALL IS GOING ALONG AS ANY TIME DOES. WE TAKE IT ONE DAY AT A TIME AND PRAY FOR THE LORD TO GUIDE US IN THE WAY THAT HE WANTS US TO GO.<br /><br />THERE ARE SOME DECISIONS THAT CHRIS AND I ARE DEBATING BUT THAT IS ANOTHER TIME AND AND ANOTHER POST. IF AND WHEN WE DO MAKE THE DECISIONS I WILL LET YOU KNOW. <br /><br />ITS HARD FOR ME TO WRITE ALOT SOMETIMES AND THE DAILY LIFE JUST SEEMS TO OVERWELM ME. I HAVE LEARNED TO TAKE IT ALL IN AND ENJOY IT. SO ENJOY IT I WILL DO.Lusbuckhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343090039419314663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2674900918182627111.post-90897785942212483002009-09-06T21:15:00.002-04:002009-09-06T21:39:04.323-04:00JUST A LITTLE BEHINDI DONT HAVE ANY GOOD REASON FOR NOT POSTING FOR AWHILE. I HAVE BEEN BUSY. SIMPLE AS THAT. I WILL NOT APOLOGIZE FOR WORKING, COMING HOME, CLEANING, COOKING SUPPER AND SPENDING TIME WITH MY FAMILY. I JUST SEE THINGS A LITTLE DIFFERENT NOW AND I WANT TO SOAK AS MUCH AS EACH DAY IN AS I CAN.<br /><br />THINGS HERE IN THE MIDDLE OF MY TOWN HAVE BEEN GOING GREAT. THE ECONOMY SUCKS BUT IM NOT THE ONLY ONE SUFFERING BECAUSE OF IT. EVERYONE IS SHORT ON MONEY AND SHORT ON HUMOR. NOTHING IS FUNNY ANYMORE. ITS STRESS PILED UP WITH MORE STRESS. I DONT SEE HOW PEOPLE EXPECT YOU DO WHAT CANT BE DONE BUT THEY DO. I JUST LOOK AT THEM WITH THE "WHATEVER" LOOK.<br /><br />AS FOR MORE HAPPIER THINGS. CHRIS AND I ARE DOING GREAT. HE HAS BECOME SO IMPORTANT TO ME. THE GIRLS HAVE BECOME ATTACHED TO HIM AND MATTHEW. MATTHEW IS LIKE ANOTHER CHILD OF MINE. WE ALL HAVE OUR MOMENTS BUT AT NIGHT ITS LIKE THE WALTONS AROUND HERE. ITS GOODNIGHTS WITH LOTS OF HUGS AND KISSES TO GO AROUND. WE HAVE ALL SAID THAT WE WOULD LET EACHOTHER KNOW HOW MUCH WE LOVE THEM BEFORE LAYING DOWN AT NIGHT. <br /><br />CHRIS AND I ARE EMBARKING ON ALMOST A YEAR OF "TALKING". I SAY THIS BECAUSE AS MOST OF YOU KNOW..I WAS STILL "LIVING" WITH RON WHEN CHRIS AND I STARTED TALKING. HE WAS TRYING TO GET OUT OF A BAD REALTIONSHIP AND WONDERING AROUND TRYING TO FIND..WELL ME.<br /><br />WE TALKED EVERYDAY. I HAD ALREADY MADE UP MY MIND WHEN CHRIS AND I STARTED TALKING ABOUT BREAKING UP WITH RON. HE LIKE I SAID WAS TRYING TO GET OUT OF A RELATIONSHIP ALSO. IT WAS HARDER FOR ME DUE TO THE FACT THAT RON ..WELL I WAS SCARED. HE WENT OUT WITH SEVERAL GIRLS DURING THIS TIME (IM NOT SAYING THATS A BAD THING) I JUST WANT TO MAKE IT CLEAR THAT WHEN WE FINALLY DECIDED TO BE TOGETHER ITS WAS LIKE 4 MONTHS AFTER OUR FIRST INTIAL TALK DATE. <br /><br />HE SEES US TOGETHER FOR ALMOST A YEAR. I SEE IT A LITTLE DIFFERENT. I DO THIS CAUSE I WANT OUR RELATIONSHIP TO BE FREE AND CLEAR OF THE PAST. SO OUR DATE IS MID FEB. I SAY WE STARTED TALKING IN OCT AND BECAME AN ITEM IN FEB. ALL IN ALL WE ARE TOGETHER AND PLAN ON BEING THAT WAY ...FOREVER.<br /><br />THE KIDS ARE DOING GOOD. MATTHEW IS PLAYING JV FOOTBALL. HE PRACTICES EVERYDAY AND COMES HOME ALL TIRED AND VERY VERY HUNGRY. WE LOOK FORWARD TO CHEERING HIM ON AT THE GAMES. <br /><br />EMILY HAS SIGNED UP FOR CHEERLEADING. SHE IS IN MIDDLE SCHOOL NOW AND HER AND ERICA ARE SEPERATED FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER. SHE HAS A MIND OF HER OWN. SHE IS EXCITED ABOUT CHEERING FOR THE REC FOOTBALL TEAM.<br /><br />ERICA IS GOING TO PLAY VOLLEYBALL. I SEE MIDDLE SCHOOL, JV AND VARISTY CALL HER NAME. SHE IS KINDA SCARED TO PLAY BUT I THINK IT WILL DO HER WELL TO HAVE HER OWN THING GOING ON. I REALLY LOOK FORWARD TO WATCHING THEM BOTH BECOME BRIGHT YOUNG LADIES.<br /><br />JEFF IS HOLDIN HIS OWN. HE HAS GOOD DAYS AND BAD DAYS. WE TAKE EACH DAY ONE DAY AT A TIME. I PRAY THAT ALL WILL BE GOOD AND THAT HE CAN CONTINUE TO GROW INTO A FINE YOUNG MAN. <br /><br />EMMA...LORD IS SHE BEAUTIFUL. SHE IS WALKING AND SAYING A FEW WORDS. SHE IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL GRANDDAUGHTER ANYONE COULD HAVE. SHE WILL BE ONE IN 13 DAYS. ITS HARD TO BELIEVE BUT TIME DOES FLY.<br /><br />WELL THATS A LITTLE UPDATE ON THIS HOUSE WE CALL HOME. I WILL TRY TO KEEP YOU UP ON WHAT HAPPENS BUT NO PROMISES. <br /><br />TILL NEXT TIME..BE SAFELusbuckhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343090039419314663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2674900918182627111.post-70322362687241562232009-05-14T14:12:00.002-04:002009-05-14T14:21:28.417-04:00So Proud!!!Recently I have been very busy with all the sports that are being played. Its really hard to sit still for too long due to the fact that when I get off of work, I come home, do some cleaning and its off to the ballfield or track field. <br /><br />Matthew(Chris's son-ya know my new man...hee hee), is such a great athlete. I think I have told you that in an earlier post, but he is really commited to sports. This past week he went to lower state playoffs in Charleston. He ran so good. He ran his race and qualified to go to State. We head off this coming weekend to Lower Richland County High School for him to compete. We all will be there to cheer him on. GOOD LUCK MATTHEW!!...( I will post later with an update on the results)<br /><br />The girls have a game tonight. Im not exactly sure who we play but what does that matter. It never does. They play and I cheer them on. <br /><br />This post is short but I have to go clean a little before its time to head out again. Have a Great Day.Lusbuckhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343090039419314663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2674900918182627111.post-12875417509738364852009-05-07T15:35:00.002-04:002009-05-07T16:01:57.374-04:00WHAT DO I SAY.This morning as I was doing my normal morning talk with Hope, I made a comment about her not posting as often as she use to. Well, she replied "What about you?". So..I figured I could not let another day go by that I didnt blog. <br /><br />I have been very busy lately. The softball, baseball and track games have been keeping all of us on the road and not at home. I love ball season. It has always thrilled my soul to see all the kids out there enjoying themselves. It doesnt hurt that Emily and Erica are playing and they just are great. Matthew (might as well say he mine too) is running track and playing baseball. The track meets and baseball games and practice have so far fell into place so we could do it all. All the kids have been doing their best. They get out there and are so headstrong. <br /><br />Emily and Erica have been juggling positions this year. Emily, last year, played catcher all year. She got use to it. This year with all the "newness" with different positions has been trying at times. All in all its been going great. I cheer them on and I sometimes holler a little too loud for their comfort but thats what I'm suppose to do. I enjoy the looks they give me too. <br /><br />Matthew has been a busy young man. Running track and playing baseball has been very physical. He seems to like it more and more each day. This weekend we head out to the Lower State Track Meet in Charleston for him to participate. I from the bottom of my heart wish him all the luck in the world. I will also be cheering him on and smiling knowing that he is doing what he loves to do.<br /><br />Now as for me. I am great. Chris and I are doing great. I really dont know much more to say on us. GREAT. We are growing; slowly. I think that is the best way. I think that way you can grow on eachother instead of being forced to feel a certain way. Chris has met all the important people in my life. My number one is my best friend Hope (as if anyone didnt know that). I just dont feel like I could have moved from where we were at that point until she got to see what I see. We visited her and its like it was suppose to be. Harmonious. Never have I known that feeling. Im glad to have found Chris and I hope that we will continue to grow. I look forward to spending more time with him and showing him off. Its nice to know that some things you hope for in life actually do happen. I have always wanted a peaceful life where of course there are going to be rainy days but you know that with you standing " BESIDE" your mate, anything is possible. <br /><br />THANK YOU CHRIS FOR WALKING AND STANDING BESIDE ME. LIFE IS SO MUCH MORE ENJOYABLE THAN WALKING A STEP BEHIND. THANKS FOR LETTING ME GROW. SUNSHINE SEEMS TO DO THAT TO THINGS. <br /><br />Well, Ive got to go get ready for another night at the ballfield. Good luck girls and Matthew. If I dont get back to you before the weekend... Good Luck Saturday Matthew !!!Lusbuckhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343090039419314663noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2674900918182627111.post-19845250685911490502009-03-12T18:33:00.002-04:002009-03-12T18:58:17.685-04:00WINTER CLEANING....APRING ANEWI HAVE OFTEN WONDERED WHAT IT WAS LIKE TO BE REALLY HAPPY. IF ONLY FOR A MOMENT I AM THAT. HAPPY. CONTENT. AND ONLY A LITTLE STRESSED. <br /><br />EVERYONE KNOWS WHAT THEIR OWN ROUTINE IS OF SPRING CLEANING. WELL I HAVE INVENTED MY OWN CLEANING. W---I---N---T---E---R (SEASON THAT I DECIDED TO DO AWAY WITH SOME "ONE")<br />I CLEANED IT OF ALL THE NEGATIVE ( MY EX BOY-FRIEND OF 9 LONG YEARS.)I GOT RID OF THE OLD ONE THAT WAS USELESS AND ALL THE OTHER STUFF I JUST DIDNT WANT ANYMORE AND MADE HIM LEAVE. <br /><br />I HONESTLY AND TRULY AM GLAD I DID THIS. IT TOOK ALOT OF DETERMINATION. I HAVE TRIED TO DO THIS FOR AWHILE BUT SOMETIMES ITS HARDER TO DO THAN TO SAY YOU WANT TO. I WAS TIRED OF WHAT MY LIFE HAD BECOME. I THINK ALOT OF NERVOUSNESS WAS DUE TO INSECURITY, THE LACK OF KNOWING, AND JUST PLAIN SCARED. I HAD GOOD FRIENDS TO GET ME THRU THE FIRST COUPLE OF DAYS.<br /> TO MY SUPRIZE EACH DAY HAS GOTTEN EASIER. ANOTHER THINGS IS IS THAT I HAVE FOUND SOMETHING THAT MAKES EACH DAY A LITTLE MORE ENJOYABLE(WHICH BEFORE CLEANING WAS MISERABLE). IT AMAZES ME HOW JUST A FRESH INSIGHT ON LIFE CAN CHANGE EVERYTHING; HOW YOU LOOK AT LIFE AND HOW YOU ACT ABOUT EACH AND EVERYTHING THAT YOU DO.<br /><br />I WISH I COULD PUT INTO WORDS HOW THE WINTER CLEANING CHANGED MY LIFE. I DID DO AWAY WITH THE OLD AND GOT SOMETHING NEW. I HOPE ITS NOT BORROWED. I HOPE THAT MY FRESHNESS STAYS ...A VERY LONG TIME. I THINK ITS LIKE SOMETHING THAT YOU PLANT AND WATCH IT GROW. SOMETIMES THINGS GET A LITTLE WILTY BUT WITH A LITTLE WATER IT COMES BACK TO LIFE AND IS A BEAUTIFUL AS EVER. THATS WHAT I FEEL LIKE. THE PLANT THAT HASNT BEEN WATERED FOR A VERY LONG TIME. I WAS AT THE BRINK OF DIEING BUT SOMEONE GAVE ME WATER AND HAS GIVEN ME A CHANCE TO LOOK AT THE WORLD AGAIN. TO SEE THE MORNING SUNRISES AND EVENING SUNSETS. THEY ARE BEAUTIFUL...AND THANKS TO YOU WHO HAVE STUCK BY ME THRU THICK AND THIN. I AM SO GRATEFUL FOR THE LENDED EARS. THE SHOULDERS THAT I HAVE LEANED ON WHEN I WANTED TO CRY. IT HAS BEEN A LONG ROAD AND I SEE THE HORIZON THAT I AM SUPPOSE TO BE SEEING. I HAVE A WONDERFUL MAN IN MY LIFE NOW. HE IS A BLESSING. WE ARE TAKING IT DAY BY DAY. I AM SO NEW TO THIS DATING THING THAT IT SCARES ME SOMETIMES BUT WHEN I HAVE DOUBTS HE DOES SOMETHING THAT MAKES ME FEEL AT EASE. <br />I DO NOT KNOW WHAT WILL BECOME OF US BUT I SURE DO HOPE TO WATCH MANY SUNSETS AND SUNRISES WITH HIM. I ALSO WANT TO THANK HIM FOR BEING WHO HE IS...A WONDERFUL MAN THAT HAS GIVIN ME A CHANCE TO BE ME. HE ALLOWS ME TO BE MY OWN PERSON WITHOUT "TELLING" ME OR "EXPECTIN" ME TO DO SOMETHING. <br />ONLY TIME WILL TELL WHAT IS STORE FOR US. <br /><br />I AM GLAD TO BE ON THIS JOURNEY WITH HIM ...I CANT WAIT TO SEE WHERE WE END UP!!!Lusbuckhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343090039419314663noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2674900918182627111.post-25311282793785311372009-01-31T09:12:00.002-05:002009-01-31T09:28:37.987-05:00THINGS HERE ARE GOING GOOD. EMILY AND ERICA HAVE SIGNED UP FOR SOFTBALL. EMILY IS MORE EXCITED THAN ERICA. ERICA IS SCARED OF THE BALL SO SHE HAS A TENDENCY TO BACK OUT OF THE BOX. LAST YEAR THE GIRLS AGED 9-12 WERE ON TEAMS. EM AND ER TEAM WERE ALL NEW PLAYERS. THEY WERE SCARED AND WHEN THOSE OLDER GIRLS GOT UP THERE AND THREW THOSE PITCHES, IT REALLY FRIGHTENED THEM. THIS YEAR WILL BE A LITTEL DIFFERENT. THEY ARE HOPING TO SEPERATE THE 9-10 YEAR OLDS AND THEN THE 11-12 YEAR OLDS. I THINK THIS IS A WONDERFUL IDEA. IT GIVES THE YOUNG ONES TIME TO ADJUST.<br /><br />WE WILL BE TRAVELING THIS YEAR DUE TO THE CHANGE. ITS NOT LIKE WE HAVE TO GO FAR BUT SOME OF THE PARENTS DONT LIKE THAT IDEA. ME..I GO WITH IT BECAUSE I ENJOY SEEING MY GIRLS MINGLE WITH THEIR OWN TEAMMATES AND THE OTHER TEAM ALSO. <br /><br />I HAVE ALWAYS LOVED BASEBALL/SOFTBALL SEASON. WE HAVE A SMALL TOWN AND IT SEEMS LIKE EVERYONE IS SO INTO THIS SEASON AS WELL. SO MANY FAMILIES ARE OUT THERE. SOME OF THEM I HAVE NEVER SEEN. ITS ALL FOR THE KIDS. IM INTO THE KID THING. ALSO TO SEE SOME PEOPLE THAT I ONLY SEE AT THIS TIME OF THE YEAR. <br /><br />PRACTICE WILL START IN ABOUT 2 WEEKS. THE GIRLS COACH MR DENNY IS GREAT. LAST YEAR HE TOLD ALL PARENTS THAT HE WAS GONNA BE EASY BUT STERN. AND HE WAS. HE HAS INFORMED US THIS YEAR WILL BE THE SAME BUT THEY NEED TO HAVE A LITTLE MORE DISIPLINE. I MEAN THIS IN THE WAY THAT MORE PRACTICES TO TEACH, LEARNING TO SLIDE. THEY ALL HAVE TO SLIDE AND LIKE I SAID LAST YEAR THEY DIDNT REALLY CALL OUTS DUE TO THE FACT THEY WERE NEW. NO GIVE MES THIS YEAR. TIME TO TOUGHEN UP I RECKON.<br /><br />WELL I NEED TO GO AND DO SOME STUFF BUT WILL TRY TO KEEP YOU UPDATED MORE OFTEN. WITH SOFTBALL SEASON HERE IM SURE I WILL HAVE ALOT TO SAY.Lusbuckhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343090039419314663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2674900918182627111.post-59474499032595469982009-01-25T23:11:00.002-05:002009-01-25T23:24:26.297-05:00Is life sometime this cozy?I WONDER HOW IN LIFE YOU PASS THINGS BY JUST TO HAVE THEM COME BACK AROUND IN A DIFFERENT LIGHT.<br /><br />I REALLY CANT ELABERATE ON WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT. I WILL TELL YOU THAT SOMETHING IN MY LIFE THAT I HAVE PUSHED AWAY SEVERAL TIMES PRESENTED ITSELF TO ME A COUPLE OF MONTHS BACK AND FOR SOME REASON I WAS INCLINED TO JUST SEE IF IT "FIT" OR NOT. WELL SO FAR SO GOOD. I REALLY HADN'T NEVER TOOK THE TIME TO SEE THE TRUE "FIT" BUT NOW THAT I HAVE PUT IT ON AND AM STANDING IN FRONT OF THE MIRROR IT LOOKS LIKE IT MIGHT JUST BE A KEEPER. IM NOT QUITE SURE YET SO I THINK I MIGHT JUST STAND HERE FOR A WHILE JUST TO MAKE SURE BEFORE I BUY IT. ONE THING IS FOR SURE....IT LOOKS NICE, FEELS GOOD, AND MAKES ME FEEL BETTER ABOUT LIFE IN GENERAL. ISNT THAT WHY WE GO SHOPPING FOR NEW THINGS. ISNT THAT WHY WE STAND THERE AND TWIRL IN FRONT OF THE MIRROR? SOMETIMES ITS WORTH THE WAIT TO FIND THAT PERFECT "FIT". <br /><br />COME BACK LATER TO FIND OUT WHAT THE HECK IM TALKING ABOUT. YOU MIGHT FIGURE IT OUT...YOU MIGHT NOT. BELIEVE YOU ME I WISH I COULD FIGURE THIS ONE OUT. I KNOW THAT GOOD THINGS COME TO THOSE WHO WAIT. I HAVE WAITED A LONG LONG TIME FOR THE PERFECT "FIT" SO I HOPE I DONT MAKE A MISTAKE AND PUT IT BACK JUST TO SEE SOMEONE ELSE SNATCH IT UP...UMMM NO DONT THINK SO...THIS I THINK MIGHT BE ONE THAT COMES HOME AND STAYS WITH MOMA...<br />UNTIL NEXT TIME...I WILL KEEP YOU POSTED ON THE BUY OF THE CENTURY..Lusbuckhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343090039419314663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2674900918182627111.post-83140565129569321382009-01-11T12:34:00.002-05:002009-01-11T12:51:55.441-05:00And the future is....ITS HARD FOR TO ME IMAGINE WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS. I HAVE BEEN WONDERING FOR SO LONG THAT I JUST HAVE MADE UP MY MIND TO RELAX AND LET THE DAYS COME DAY BY DAY. <br />TO START OFF WITH THAT IS EASIER SAID THAN DONE. ITS THE OBSTACLES IN THE WAYS THAT MAKE IT HARD. <br /><br />SOME THINGS HAVE CHANGED SINCE MY LAST POST AND THE CHANGES HAVE MADE MY LIFE ...COMPLICATED. I HAVE THOUGHT MANY TIMES TO COME AND POST BUT GOT SIDETRACKED...BAD..<br /><br />THE CHRISTMAS HOLIDAYS WERE TOUGH. THIS WAS THE FIRST CHRISTMAS WITHOUT MY MOM AND TO THOSE OF YOU WHO HAVE PARENTS STILL WITH YOU...TAKE IN EVERY MOMENT YOU CAN WITH THEM. IT WAS SO HARD LOOKING AT THE HOLIDAYS THE SAME. I DID IT THOUGH. I HAVE TWO LITTLE GIRLS THAT WERE LOOKING FORWARD TO ALL THE GLITZ AND GLAMOUR. THE REAL REASON FOR CHRISTMAS HAS FALLEN SO FAR BEHIND THE BOWS AND PRESENTS THAT HOLIDAYS ARE NOTHING BUT ANOTHER REASON TO COMPLAIN ABOUT NOT HAVING ENOUGH MONEY TO PAY BILLS COME JANUARY. WE ALL (INCLUDING MYSELF) NEED TO FOCUS MORE ON WHAT WE HAVE INSTEAD OF WHAT SOMEONE ELSE CAN WRAP IN PRETTY PAPER AND BOWS. <br /><br />OK THAT THOUGHT IS GONE. NOW ..THE HOLIDAYS ARE OVER. JANUARY 09 HAS COME AND GOING BY FAST LIKE IN A HURRY. THE NEW PRESIDENT IS ABOUT TO BE SWORN IN AND HISTORY AGAIN IS ABOUT TO BE CHANGED. MY THOUGHTS ON THIS WILL NOT BE WRITTEN DOWN SO IT CANT BE USED AGAINST ME IN A COURT OF LAW. LOL...<br />THIS IS SOMETHING SOME WILL LEARN FROM AND SOME WILL REGRET. I DO WISH HIM THE WISDOM TO GUIDE THIS COUNTRY IN THE RIGHT WAY. WHETHER ONE VOTED FOR HIM OR NOT HE IS THERE AND HE NEEDS ALL THE PRAYERS HE CAN GET. HE HAS HAD TO STEP INTO A PAIR OF MANS SHOES. WHETHER THEY FIT HIM COMFORTABLE...WELL THEY CAN BE A LOOSE FIT...OR A TIGHT FIT..HE HAS TO CHOOSE HOW HE WEARS THEM EITHER WAY..HECK HE IS THE TYPE TO GO BAREFOOT AND DARE SOMEONE TO SAY ANYTHING...<br /><br />WELL I DO HOPE EVERYONE HAD A GREAT ENDING OF ONE YEAR AND HAS STARTED THIS YEAR OFF GOOD.Lusbuckhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343090039419314663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2674900918182627111.post-78090804759492613592008-12-03T13:51:00.000-05:002008-12-03T14:06:51.954-05:00AND WE'RE BACKITS BEEN A COUPLE OF DAYS SINCE I WROTE SO I WANTED TO JOT A FEW WORDS. AT LAST POST I WAS PATIENTLY WAITING THE DEPARTURE FOR THE CRUISE. WELL, IT HAS COME AND HAS GONE TO BE ONLY A MEMORY. <br /><br />WE LEFT HERE AT AROUND 5:00 ON FRIDAY(21ST) MORNING. I WAS EXCITED ABOUT THE TRAVELING BUT ALSO BECAUSE I WAS GONNA GET TO SEE HOPE(AND FRED). I SPEAK WITH HERE ALMOST EVERYDAY BUT SEEING HER IN PERSON IS JUST A BREATHE OF FRESH AIR. <br /><br />WE ARRIVED IN GEORGIA SOMETIME THAT MORNING...LORD I CANT REMEMBER THE TIME. WE ATE AT SHONEYS. IT WAS A SHORT VISIT BUT IT WAS WONDERFUL. THE GIRLS GOT TO SEE THEIR AUNT HOPE AND CAT NAVY AND I GOT TO SEE MY BEST FRIEND. <br /><br />WE THEN HEADED SOUTH AGAIN ON 95. WE HAD A LONG WAY TO GO. WE WERE WANTING TO GET TO WEST PALM BEACH BEFORE DARK. IT WOULD NOT HAVE MATTERED TO ME AS LONG AS I GOT TO STOP BY THE HARLEY SHOP IN DAYTONA. THAT HAS BECOME A LITTLE TRADITION OF MY OWN. THIS WAS MY 3RD CRUISE AND ON BOTH OF THE OTHERS, THE TRAVEL DOWN WE STOPPED. I GOT A SHIRT THOSE TWO TIMES AND I WAS GONNA GET ONE THIS TIME. <br /><br />WELL I GOT MY SHIRT AND AGAIN WE WERE HEADING SOUTH. WE FINALLY ARRIVED IN WEST PALM AT RONS COUSINS THAT EVENING. I TELL YOU. THE WEATHER THERE IS SO NICE AND MAINLY STAYS THAT WAY. CHAWN (RONS COUSIN) WAS SO GENEROUS. SHE LET ALL OF US STAY AND TREATED US SO GREAT. THE KIDS LOVE CHAWN. THEY JUST CANT GET ENOUGH OF HER. <br /><br />WE GOT UP THE NEXT MORNING AND HEADED OUT FOR THE LAST 75 MILES TO MIAMI PORT. IT WAS A GOOD HOUR AWAY AND WE WANTED TO MAKE SURE WE HAD ENOUGH TIME. WE DID WITH PLENTY TO SPARE. <br /><br />THE GIRLS WERE AMAZED WHEN THEY SAW "THEIR" SHIP. IT WAS HUGE. TWENTY QUESTIONS HAD NOTHING ON THEM. I FINALLY HAD TO SAY. TAKE A CHILL AND I WILL TELL YOU ABOUT EVERYTHING IN AWHILE. I CANT ANSWER QUESTIONS AND TRY TO GET LUGGAGE AND FIND PARKING ALL AT THE SAME TIME. <br /><br />THE DEPARTATION WENT WELL. THE GIRLS WANTED TO GO DO STUFF BUT WANTED ME TO TAG ALONG. I TOLD THEM TO GO HAVE FUN BUT CHECK IN EVERY SO OFTEN. WELL ABOUT WEDNESDAY THEY FIGURED OUT THAT GOING AND DOING THINGS BY THEMSELVES WAS ALOT MORE FUN THAT STAYING WITH ME. THEY FINALLY STARTED REALLY ENJOYING THE SHIP. THEY WENT TO THE ARCADE. THEY DID LITTLE ACTIVITES..OR JUST WENT SOCIALIZING WITH THE OTHER HUNDEREDS OF KIDS ON BOARD. I WASNT TELLING NO LIE WHEN I SAID HUNDREDS OF KIDS. IT WAS LIKE A PLAY YARD FULL. I GUESS THANKSGIVING ON A SHIP WAS WHAT ALL THE OTHER PARENTS WERE THINKING TOO. <br /><br />ALL IN ALL THE CRUISE WAS GOOD. THE ISLANDS WERE BEAUTIFUL. I CAN SAY IVE BEEN THEIR NOW AND AM ALREADY SEARCHING FOR THE NEXT ADVENTURE. IM NOT SURE WHERE IT WILL BE BUT I WILL KEEP YOU INFORMED.Lusbuckhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343090039419314663noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2674900918182627111.post-42998855166523768622008-11-18T18:15:00.002-05:002008-11-18T18:31:02.699-05:00AS WE WAVE GOODBYEWELL, FOLKS, IT WONT BE LONG NOW. ITS ONLY FOUR DAYS TIL WE SET SAIL FOR THE WESTERN CARIBBEAN. I HAVE WAITED SINCE LAST YEAR FOR THIS TRIP. IT IS NOW RIGHT ON TOP OF ME AND I FEEL LIKE MY NERVES ARE PULLING ME EVERY WHICH WAY BUT LOOSE. THANK THE LORD FOR THE GOOD MEDS..LOL<br /><br />I STARTED PACKING DAYS AGO AND STILL HAVENT GOT EVERYTHING STRAIGHT. I PROBABLY NEVER WILL. THERE WILL BE SOMETHING THAT I WILL FORGET. GUESS WHAT ...THERE ARE WALLY WORLDS ALL UP AND DOWN INTERSTATE 95..WHEW..<br /><br />I LOVE TO CRUISE. THE FIRST TIME I WENT I WAS SO NERVOUS. I WAS KINDA AFRAID OF THE "OCEAN". I DONT SWIM IN THE OCEAN. NEVER HAVE. NEVER WILL. SO WHY GO ON A BIG BOAT IN THE MIDDLE OF ONE OF THE THINGS THAT IM AFRAID OF. WELL, I DONT KNOW WHY I DID BUT I AM SO GLAD I DID. I LOVE IT. MY THOUGHTS NOW. IF YOU GO ON VACATION. YOU GET A ROOM, AND GO OUT TO EAT, THEN HAVE TO DRIVE AROUND FOR ENTERTAINMENT. ON A BOAT ITS ALL THERE. YOU JUST GET THE LUXURY OF GOING TO PLACES YOU'VE NEVER BEEN, OR THAT YOU HAVE BEEN AND WANTED TO GO BACK, BUT ITS ALL AT YOUR FINGERTIPS. THE COST IS SOMETIMES EXSPENSIVE, BUT IF YOU HAVE NEVER BEEN ON ONE. I WILL SAY DONT KNOCK IT UNTIL YOU TRY IT. <br /><br />I WILL NOT BE ABLE TO MAKE UP MY MIND ABOUT CARRYING THE KIDS AGAIN UNTIL I GO ON THIS TRIP. I HAVE MIXED FEELINGS ABOUT THIS. I WANT THEM THERE AND I WANT THEM TO ENJOY THIS TRIP. I WANT THEM TO LOOK BACK ON THIS AND SAY THAT MY MOM TOOK ME PLACES WHEN I WAS YOUNG. WHEN I WAS YOUNG MY MOM TOOK ME EVERYWHERE WITH HER. I HONESTLY CANT REMEMBER ALL THE PLACES BUT I KNOW IT WAS ALOT. THATS WHAT I WANT FOR MY KIDS. THE ONLY THING IS ...WELL AGAIN MY NERVES. I CANT SEND THEM TO THERE GRANDDADS...LOL. ITS ONE WEEK AND EVEN IF THEY ARE ROWDY AT TIMES THEY WILL BE WITH ME. THATS WHAT MATTERS.<br /><br />I PRAY WE WILL HAVE A SAFE TRIP. <br /><br />I MIGHT NOT BE WRITTING FOR THE NEXT WEEK AND 1/2 BUT I WILL WHEN I GET SETTLED BACK IN HERE AT THE LONELY STREET HOMETEL. <br /><br />I HOPE EVERYONE HAS A WONDERFUL HOLIDAY. DONT EAT TOO MUCH TURKEY.<br /><br />ONE MORE THING. I AM BREAKING A TRADITION THIS YEAR. FOR AS LONG AS I CAN REMEMBER I HAVE GONE SHOPPING THE DAY AFTER THANKSGIVING WITH MY BEST FRIEND MS TRUJILLO. I WILL MISS THIS THIS YEAR AND MY HEART IS SAD. I HOPE SHE KNOWS THAT NO MATTER WHERE I AM(WHICH WILL BE JAMACIA) THAT MY HEART IS WITH HER AND SO IS MY SHOPPING SPIRIT. I LOVE YOU GIRL AND DONT EVER FORGET THAT..<br /><br />P.S. LORD IM GONNA MISS GETTING UP EARLY WITH YOU AND GAME PLANNING.. I WILL BRING A NICE SOUVENIER BACK TO YOU OK.Lusbuckhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343090039419314663noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2674900918182627111.post-40039029586080248162008-11-12T20:41:00.000-05:002008-11-12T20:54:04.359-05:00WHAT DO YOU DO?I REALLY HAVE ENJOYED THE FACT THAT THE GIRLS ARE LEARNING HOW TO SPEND MONEY. THE MONEY THEY GOT FOR THIER BIRTHDAY, AS I SAID IN AN EARLIER POST, WAS ABOUT TO BURN HOLES IN THEIR POCKETS. WELL, NOW THAT THE PURCHASES HAVE BEEN MADE SOME REGRETS ARE COMING. EMILY IS STILL VERY PLEASED WITH HER AMERICAN GIRL DOLL. SHE TOTES HER AROUND AND TREATS HER WELL. I GUESS WHEN ITS YOUR OWN MONEY YOU TEND TO TAKE BETTER CARE OF THINGS. <br /><br />NOW ON THE OTHER HAND ERICA IS REGRETTING GETTING A CAMERA. SHE LOVES HER CAMERA BUT JUST CANT STAND THE FACT THAT EMILY HAS AN AMERICAN GIRL DOLL. AT THE TIME OF PURCHASE AND AFTER ALL THE SUBTRACTING ERICA STILL HAD MONEY. SHE HAS HELD ONTO THAT. SHE ALSO HAS BEEN SAYING SHE WANTS AN AMERICAN GIRL DOLL. ME, AS THE MOM, SAYS TO HER, "WORK HARD AND EACH WEEK ADD YOUR MONEY TO WHAT YOU HAVE AND SOON YOU CAN BUY ONE".<br /><br />FOLKS LET ME TELL YOU HOW SNEAKY THIS KID IS. SHE HAS LISTENED TO THINGS SO WELL IN LIFE THAT SHE CALLED HER DADDY AND LEFT HIM A MESSAGE THAT SHE NEEDED TO TALK TO HIM. HE CALLS BACK AND THE GIRL HAS STRUCK UP A DEAL. <br /><br />HER IT IS..SHE GETS HER ALLOWANCE. WELL, SHE WANTS A LOAN. SHE AGREES THAT IF HER DADDY WILL ALLOW HER TO PURCHASE HER AMERICAN GIRL DOLL THAT SHE WILL REPAY HIM WEEKLY. I JUST COULDNT BELIEVE IT. FIRST THAT SHE WAS SMART ENOUGH TO SNEAK AND CALL HER DAD, SECOND THAT SHE THOUGHT OF THE IDEA AND MOST OF ALL THAT HER DAD AGREED. <br /><br />NOW TO THE FACT THAT THIS ISNT FAIR TO EMILY..WELL I CAN STRIKE DEALS TOO. EMILY GETS TO GET SOMETHING THE SAME PRICE OF THE CAMERA. TO THING IS EMILY IS CONTENT. NOT THAT I STILL WONT DO THAT BUT SHE MADE THE RIGHT DECISION FIRST AND IS HAPPY. <br /><br />SO...WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOUR KID OUTSMARTS YOU...AT THIS POINT ...NOTHING..BECAUSE SHE HAS HER DAD RIGHT WHERE SHE WANTS HIM...WRAPPED.<br /><br />ALL IN ALL I HAVE TO SAY...SHE GOT ME ..(TOO)Lusbuckhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343090039419314663noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2674900918182627111.post-63159034789162584102008-11-10T16:20:00.000-05:002008-11-10T16:27:05.000-05:00SNIFFLESIT IS NOW 11 DAYS FROM THE DATE THAT MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS ARE LEAVING TO GO ON A CRUISE. IT SEEMS TO ME THAT NO MATTER WHAT PLANS SOMEONE MAKES THERE ARE GONNA BE TREES ACROSS THE ROAD. WELL AT THIS POINT ITS A LIMB BUT MOMMA CUT THAT LIMB QUICK LIKE IN A HURRY.<br /><br />YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT SO ...MY FAMILY HAS BEEN SUFFERING FROM STUFFY NOSES. ALONG WITH THE NOSES RUNNING, THERE ARE THE COUGHS AND THE YUCKS. I DECIDED TO GO AHEAD AND GO TO DR. A. (MIND YOU I HAVE KNOWN THIS DR. FOR 10YEARS AND HE IS MORE OF MY FRIEND THAN DR.). WELL, HE SAYS ALL SOUNDS GOOD BUT WE NEEDED AN ANTIHISTAMINE. HE WROTE A RX FOR US AND SAID HE WAS GONNA BE THERE THIS FRIDAY AND NEXT MONDAY JUST IN CASE. I FELT KINDA BAD FOR GOING SO SOON BUT I REALLY NEEDED TO TRY TO GET THIS TAKEN CARE OF. <br /><br />SO HERE WE GO. HOPEFULLY THE DR. WILL NOT HAVE TO SEE ME AGAIN. WELL AT LEAST FOR THIS. <br /><br />I WILL CONTINUE TO PACK AND DO AS USUAL BUT I GAVE HIM FAIR WARNING TODAY. IF I GET SICK ON THIS CRUISE I WILL BLAME HIM. LOL..LIKE HE REALLY CARES WHAT I THINK...AND YES HE SAID "WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO WHEN YOU ARE WAY DOWN SOUTH AND CANT REACH ME"..MIND YOU.. I WILL BE BACK.<br /><br />HAVE TO LOVE HIM. FOR TRYING.Lusbuckhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343090039419314663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2674900918182627111.post-45308256678867787842008-11-07T18:30:00.000-05:002008-11-07T18:45:05.271-05:00THE HOLES IN THE POCKETAS I WAS GROWING UP I HAD CHORES. DID I HATE THEM...WELL YES ...BUT I DID THEM. I KNEW THAT IF I DID I MIGHT AND I STRESS MIGHT GET A LITTLE REWARD AT THE END OF THE WEEK. IT MIGHT BE IN THE FORM OF DOLLAR BILLS OR A NEW RECORD TO LISTEN TO. MIND YOU IT HAD TO BE APPROVED BY MY MOM FOR ME TO GET IT. FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO KNEW HER..WELL MOST OF THE RECORDS WERE NOT SUITABLE FOR ME. <br /><br />WELL, I AM TRYING MY BEST TO INSTILL IN MY GIRLS THAT YOU WORK..YOU EARN. THEY COMPLAIN AS I DID BUT ARE DOING TUMBLES AT THE END OF THE WEEK. THE GIRLS KNOW EVERY FRIDAY IS "PAY DAY". THE PAST NUMBER OF MONTHS THEY SAVE UP FOR WEBKINS. I DONT SAY A WORD. THEY EARNED IT. <br /><br />WELL LADIES AND GENTS...THE BIRTHDAY MONEY. I THINK IT COME OUT THE CARD FLAMING. THE HOLES IN THE POCKETS WERE SO BIG THAT A BOULDER COULD FALL THROUGH. <br /><br />EMILY..HAD HER MIND SET. SHE WANTED AN AMERICAN GIRL DOLL. I EXPLAINED THAT THAT WAS ALOT OF MONEY FOR A DOLL. SHE KNEW IT WAS. SHE IS BUYING THIS DOLL BECAUSE I HAD ALSO TOLD HER THAT I "WAS NOT" BUYING ONE. WELL, THE DOLL HAS BEEN ORDERED AND NOW DONT YOU KNOW THE POSTMAN IS THE SLOWEST MAN ON EARTH. IF IVE HEARD IS THE DOLL HERE YET ONE TIME..IVE HEARD IT 100 TIMES.<br /><br />AS FOR ERICA..SHE WANTED A CAMERA. I DISCUSSED THIS PURCHASE ALSO. I WANTED HER TO HAVE A NICE CAMERA BUT NOT ONE THAT IF SOMETHING HAPPENED..I WOULDNT HAVE A DUCK. SO WE VENTURED OUT AND GUESS WHAT...OUR LOCAL WALMART HAD THE PERFECT ONE. IT TOOK ALOT OF THIS ONE HAS THIS AND THIS ONE HAS THAT, BUT A DECISION WAS MADE BY..NOT ME ..BUT ERICA. I DO THIS SO SHE WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO COME BACK ON ME ON THIS ONE. SHE WILL ...SHE IS LIKE THAT. NOTHING IS EVER HER FAULT WHEN SOMETHING GOES WRONG.<br /><br />SO THE HOLES IN THE POCKET HAVE BEEN SEWN BACK TOGETHER SO MORE MONEY CAN BE SAVED. WELL AT LEAST UNTIL THEY SAVE ENOUGH TO BUY SOMETHING ELSE. THEN I WILL HAVE TO MEND AGAIN.<br /><br />HOPE EVERYONE HAS HAD A GREAT WEEK. ME..I HAVE HAD ONE. ITS NICE WHEN YOU HAVE FOUND YOUR PERFECT PAIR OF FLIP FLOPS...WELL MY JOB IS THAT RIGHT NOW. I SAY THIS BECAUSE YA NEVER KNOW...IT COULD GET BETTER...<br /><br />I WILL LEAVE IT UP TO FATE.Lusbuckhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343090039419314663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2674900918182627111.post-87249245464708263952008-11-04T06:43:00.000-05:002008-11-04T06:53:45.986-05:00AND TIME STOOD STILL...AGAINEVERY CHANCE MY DAUGHTER (ERICA) GETS SHE TELLS ME HOW MUCH SHE LOVES ME. (EMILY TELLS ME TOO BUT ITS LIKE SHE IS DRAGGING A DEAD HORSE AROUND FOR HER TO "HAVE" TO TELL ME...) SHE IS MOMAS GIRL. ALWAYS HAS BEEN. EACH NIGHT ON MY WAY TO BED I ALWAYS; EVEN AFTER ALL THE GOODNIGHT KISSES AND HUGS HAVE BEEN GIVIN, GO BY THE GIRLS ROOM FOR SOME SPECIAL HUGS AND KISSES. EVERY NIGHT I GET MY " I LOVE YOU'S" UNTIL THE EYELIDS ARE SO HEAVY THAT NO OTHER WORDS CAN BE EXPRESSED. <br /><br />WELL, LAST NIGHT, AS USUAL, I GO TO THE GIRLS BEDROOM AND A NEW LITTLE PHRASE CAUGHT ME OFF GUARD.."MOMA, I LOVE YOU SO BAD" IT STRUCK ME AS SO LOVING THAT I HUGGED AGAIN JUST TO HEAR IT. <br /><br />WELL THATS MY THOUGHT FOR TODAY....THAT NO MATTER HOW YOUR KIDS TELL YOU THEY LOVE YOU...ITS HOW THEY EXPRESS IT SOMETIMES THAT JUST MAKES OUR HEARTS JUST STAND STILL. <br /><br />P.S. <br />DICUSSION HAVE BEEN HAD AND PROMISES MADE. IT ALL COMES DOWN TO THE NUMBERS TODAY. I HAVE KNOWN FOR AWHILE WHO I WAS VOTING FOR AND I AM VERY HEAD STRONG. ONCE I MAKE UP MY MIND...WELL FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO KNOW ME...ITS MADE UP. DONT GET ME WRONG...I HAVE CHANGED MY MIND SEVERAL TIMES...BUT...THIS IS NOT ONE OF THEM TIMES.<br /><br />HAVE A GOOD VOTING DAY PEOPLE.Lusbuckhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343090039419314663noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2674900918182627111.post-79265655177525670322008-10-31T17:14:00.000-04:002008-10-31T17:25:26.233-04:00DRIFTING AWAY?THATS WHAT I FEEL LIKE IVE BEEN DOING FOR THE PAST COUPLE OF DAYS...DRIFTING. I HAVE BEEN SO USE TO BEING AT HOME AND HAVING TIME TO DO WHAT I WANTED WHEN I WANTED THAT IVE HAD TO STOP AND RECOLLECT THESE PAST TWO WEEKS. <br />I HAVE STARTED THIS WEEK AT THE DOCTORS OFFICE THAT I WAS TRAINING FOR LAST WEEK. I REALLY LIKE IT. IT IS LAID BACK AND EASY GOING. GOOD THING FOR ME SINCE I LIKE THAT KINDA JOB. ITS NOT BUSY AT ALL. I HOPE THAT WORK WILL PICK UP IN THE FUTURE BUT I WILL NOT COMPLAIN UNTIL THEN. IM NOT COMPLAINING NOW, JUST A SNEEK PEEK INTO WHAT THEY ARE WORKING HARD TO DO. <br /><br />LIFE HERE HASNT CHANGED MUCH. I STILL TAKE THE GIRLS TO SCHOOL, BUT I HAVE PICKED THEM UP MORE IN THE PAST TWO WEEKS. THEY LOVE THAT PART OF THE JOB. THEY TELL ME ITS JUST NOT KOOL TO RIDE THE BUS. MAYBE NOT BUT MY TAXES AT WORK...WHO CARES ABOUT KOOL. IT DOESNT HURT MY PRIDE AT ALL. <br /><br />I HAVE TO BOAST A LITTLE. REPORT CARDS COME OUT WEDNESDAY. I WILL TELL YOU THAT "BOTH" OF THE GIRLS MADE HONOR ROLL. I WASNT "SHOCKED" BUT I HAVENT BEEN PAYING THAT CLOSE OF ATTENTION TO THE GRADES. WELL, THE GOOD ONES. I HAVE BEEN FOCUSED ON ALL THE LOWER ONES. BUT I AM VERY PROUD OF THEM. THEY ALSO DID NOT FORGET ME TELLING THEM THAT IF THEY MADE HONOR ROLL THAT I WOULD GIVE THEM A LITTLE PIECE OF MONEY. I KNOW SOME LOOK AT THAT LIKE ...I SHOULDNT DO IT BUT ...YA KNOW..I WORK HARDER IF I KNOW IM GETTING PAID...SO WHY NOT GIVE THEM A LITTLE BOOST. YA NEVER KNOW IT MIGHT RUB OFF AND THEY WANT TO CONTINUE WITH THE GOOD GRADE THING (EVEN WHEN MOMA HAS NO MONEY).<br /><br />WE ARE HEADING OFF TO A WEEKEND PACKED FULL OF STUFF. TOMORROW IS THEIR BIRTHDAY PARTY. I DIDNT REALIZE GOING INTO THIS THAT IT WAS GONNA BE AS MUCH WORK AS IT HAS TURNED OUT TO BE. I GUESS ONCE A YEAR I CAN HANDLE IT. THEY ARE SO EXCITED. <br /><br />I WILL TELL YOU ALL ABOUT IT SOON. <br />IVE GOT TO GO NOW. GOODIE BAGS ARE WAITING TO BE MADE.Lusbuckhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343090039419314663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2674900918182627111.post-25901186317657208272008-10-24T18:34:00.001-04:002008-10-24T18:57:55.422-04:00FALLING BACK INTO AN OLD ROUTINETHIS WEEK HAS BEEN A ROLLER COASTER OF THINGS GOING ON. THE MAIN THING IS I STARTED MY NEW JOB AS I THINK I HAVE ALREADY TALKED ABOUT. THE END OF THE WEEK HAS REALLY COME FAST. THAT IS UNUSUAL I KNOW BUT I HAVE TO ADMIT THAT I HAVE FOUND MY CALLING. IT TAKES SOME PEOPLE A WHOLE LIFE TIME TO FIND IT BUT I REALLY LOVE BEING A PHLEBOTOMIST(THE ONE WHO DRAWS BLOOD JUST IN CASE YOU DIDNT KNOW). THE INTERACTION WITH PEOPLE REALLY MAKES MY HEART SING A SONG. <br /><br />I UNDERSTAND THE CRINGE WHEN YOU WILL READ THIS. MOST PEOPLE DO NOT LIKE TO HAVE BLOOD DRAWN BUT WHEN YOU DO ...YOU ALWAYS REMEMBER THE ONE WHO DOES THE DIRTY DEED. I TRY MY BEST TO MAKE IT THE BEST IT CAN BE. I ALSO UNDERSTAND THAT SOME PEOPLE JUST REALLY DONT CARE BECAUSE THEY ARE TERRIFIED. I UNDERSTAND THAT ALSO AND I TAKE THAT ALL TO HEART. <br /><br />I HAVE BEEN CERTIFIED FOR YEARS AND GOT OUT OF THE GROOVE TO BE HOME MORE WITH MY KIDS BUT THE OLD SAYING ABOUT RIDING THE BICYCLE...YOU KNOW THE ONE...THE ONE THAT SAYS ITS LIKE RIDING A BICYLCE. WELL, DRAWING BLOOD TO ME IS JUST LIKE THAT. ONCE I GOT STARTED IT WAS JUST NATURAL. <br /><br />I HAVE MET NEW PEOPLE THIS WEEK. ONES THAT I WILL WORK ALONG SIDE, HOPEFULLY FOR A LONG TIME AND ALSO THE PATIENTS THAT I MAY NEVER SEE AGAIN. THE ONLY THING IS IS IF I MADE ANYONES EXPERIENCE JUST A LITTLE BIT LESS NERVE RACKING I AM HAPPY. <br /><br />I WILL START NEXT WEEK IN "MY" OFFICE. I WILL BE IN A DR'S OFFICE BUT I WILL BE THE ONLY ONE OF "MY" KIND. SOON AFTER A WEEK OR TWO ON TRAINGING ON A COMPUTER I WILL HAVE IT ALL TO MYSELF. I HAVE NO DOUBT THAT I CAN HANDLE IT. I KNOW THERE WILL BE THOSE DAYS THAT I WILL HAVE TO CALL MY SUPERVISOR AND ASK FOR HELP BUT HE HAS MADE IT SO EASY TO ASK QUESTIONS THAT I FEEL THAT I CAN CALL HIM AND GET THE GUIDANCE THAT I WILL NEED. <br /><br />SO FOR NOW ITS BEEN THE FIRST COUPLE OF STEPS INTO A NEW/OLD ADVENTURE. AND FOR THOSE WHO JUST CANT STAND TO GET BLOOD DRAWN...I REALLY AM TRULY SORRY FOR LOVING MY JOB...Lusbuckhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343090039419314663noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2674900918182627111.post-41390502939086427802008-10-20T18:42:00.000-04:002008-10-20T19:16:02.286-04:00FIRST DAY JITTERSTODAY I STARTED A NEW JOB. I HAVE BEEN PREPARING FOR THIS NEW POSITION FOR THE PAST MONTH. THIS JOB POSITION IS A OLD/ NEW CAREER FOR ME. YOU SEE OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL I WENT DIRECTLY INTO THE MEDICAL FIELD. I HAVE WORKED IN THE MEDICAL FIELD OFF AND ON SINCE THEN UP UNTIL THE BIRTH OF MY TWIN GIRLS. AT THAT TIME I MADE THE DECISION TO STAY HOME WHERE I WAS NEEDED MORE. I HAVE NEVER REGRETTED CHANGING FROM WORKING MOM TO STAY AT HOME MOM. IT WAS A TIME THAT I COULD HAVE NEVER IMAGINED NOT DOING. THE FIRST SMILES, THE FIRST STEPS ...AND ALL THE FIRST THAT I WOULD HAVE MISSED. MAN, I REALLY CANT IMAGINE. <br /><br />AS THE YEARS HAVE PASSED ME BY I STARTED TO GET INTO THE WORKING WORLD AGAIN. IT STARTED SLOWLY AND BECAME A RAT RACE I CALLED EVERYDAY LIFE. IT WASNT LONG BEFORE THINGS SLOWED ME DOWN AGAIN AND I DECIDED I WAS NEEDED AT HOME AGAIN. SO ...I CAME HOME FOR A SHORT WHILE. I HAVE HAD AN OPPORTUNITY TO WORK FROM HOME DOING A SECOND CAREER THAT I PICKED UP ALONG THE ROAD OF LIFE. IT HAS BEEN MARVELOUS. SEEING MY TWO GIRLS GET OFF THE BUS AND SMILE WHEN THEY SEE ME STANDING THERE WATCHING AS THEY GROW UP RIGHT BEFORE MY EYES. THEY HAVE GROWN UP SO FAST. <br /><br />SO BACK TO THE NEW JOB. I HAVE BEEN TRYING FOR AWHILE TO FIND A PART TIME JOB THAT WAS JUST RIGHT. I HAVE HAD THE "TOO HOT" JOB ..THE "TOO COLD" JOB..AND JUST HAD NOT FOUND THAT JOB THAT WAS "JUST RIGHT". I WAS CONTENT AT HOME. WHY MESS UP A GOOD THING. WELL ...THE OLE SAYING THAT WHEN YOU QUIT LOOKING HAS COME INTO PLAY. I WAS AT HOME AND GOT A PHONE CALL THAT HAS PLAYED OUT TO ME GOING BACK INTO THE MEDICAL FIELD WHERE I TRULY BELEIVE MY HEART IS.<br /><br />I WILL BE IN A DR'S OFFICE, AND IN THIS DR'S OFFICE I WILL BE MY OWN "BOSS" I GUESS YOU COULD SAY. I WILL BE WORKING FOR A COUNTRY WIDE LAB AND ONCE TRAINED I WILL BE ON MY OWN. I WILL BE INSIDE THE DR'S OFFICE BUT WILL NOT BE EMPLOYED BY THEM. ANYWAY...BLAH BLAH BLAH...<br /><br />TO GET TO MY POINT ...I LEFT HOME THIS MORNING WITH MY NERVES MAKING MY STOMACH DO FLIPS. I ARRIVED EARLY TO MAKE A GOOD IMPRESSION AND THE DAY STARTED WELL. ACTUALLY I ENJOYED MY FIRST DAY. GO FIGURE. SO I HAVE PUSHED MY JITTERS ASIDE AND DECIDED TO ENJOY THIS JOB. ITS WHAT IVE WANTED AND WHAT I HAVE ALWAYS LOVED TO DO. MY DESTINY? WELL, WE WILL HAVE TO WAIT AND SEE, BUT FOR NOW I AM SMILING.Lusbuckhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343090039419314663noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2674900918182627111.post-15138709655492016382008-10-17T10:34:00.000-04:002008-10-17T11:12:03.114-04:00And the Wheels on the truck haltedA few years ago I was involved in a accident. This accident changed me forever. I am so causious now that I scare myself. I look two or three times before pulling out of somewhere and even have someone check behind me when changing lanes (if I have and adult riding that I nominate to be the side car driver). If you've ever experienced an accident I'm sure you can relate. <br /><br />Well, out for an afternoon of going to the bank for myself and my bestest friend in the whole wide world, I decided it would be a nice treat to let my girls go to Mikey D's for a treat. I live in a small town with only two red lights so its not like its a big town, anyway, I had just left the bank and I preceed to McDonald's ...then I see this little brownish car pulling out of a side rode. I slowed down ..to be nice...lol...he stopped...I sped up again...he stopped...he proceeded to pull further out into the street and AGAIN...I stopped.....well the third time is the charm right...WRONG....I sped up...he slammed into me....yep people...he says he didnt see me..<br /><br />Now just for the record, I drive an ARMADA. I dont want you to think I'm cold-hearted. I understand that accidents happen. I also understand that we sometimes misjudge distance. I am not talking about that aspect of the accident. I gave him three chances. Ok thats over with.<br /><br />I am sitting here waiting on the adjustor to put all his notes on paper and print them out for me. I am not happy with the fact that I have to go put my truck in a shop. But life throws curves and we can either stand and get hit or duck and get missed. I think ...well there is nothing I can do. The economy is so bad right now that this Armada is at home and will continue to be here because moma cant take what they are willing to trade in for right now. Also, now that she is getting her hair colored as not to show her gray hair, she is just well mine. Thats ok though. We have bonded and I really have to say we have come to an agreement. The accident was bad because it was an accident but no one got hurt (well Emily's arm got bang up ..but will be better in time), and that all in all she protected us with her massiveness. This is why I bought her and she has proven to me that she is happy to be here. She has proven that she is here to protect us. Now mind you ..what hit us was a tonka car. Hopefully she will never have to show us if she is fit for the job against anything else. I hope she doesnt EVA want to play chicken with anything her own size or bigger. Even though she protected us ...the full credit needs to be a little higher up. And yes, I did thank him( I say this because I know Hope is asking). <br /><br />p.s. I just got through talking to the adjustor and she has been put out of commission until she is well. I have to go get a loaner. I will miss her but she will be all spruced up soon..Lusbuckhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343090039419314663noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2674900918182627111.post-26582369203858719542008-10-14T10:17:00.000-04:002008-10-14T10:56:25.028-04:00WHAT I THINK?As I was growing up I would often sit and listen to my mom or dad tell me what I should do or what I was going to do (if i wanted to live here under their roof), and wonder why dont you ask me what I think I should do? This moment in time has been poking its head into my now grown up life as I try to tell my soon to be 17 year old son what I now know what he needs to do. The blank look on his face when I "suggest" what he might do tells me those words that I hear in the back of my mind ("You'll see one day when you have kids") were true. I would only admit this to ...well ...me. <br />The thing I cant comprehend is how much the world is changing. When I was young(er)...I would have never and I mean NEVER talked with such sturness to my parents. I was too afraid that I would get grounded or at the worst end up with no teeth. Not that my parents ever threatened me with that, but I had an understanding from a very young age that respect was the upmost important thing to my parents. Anyone that knows of my past and has been here will testify that my mom...well she was sturn but I could sweet talk her out of a no. Now on the other hand ...my dad... he would say no and no more questions were asked. Also, if I asked him ..well let me rephrase that ...if I would even start to ask and his eyebrow raised in the slightest...I just turned my not so happy butt around and took it with a grain of salt and smiled. Did I ever test my dad ..well yes...did I ever do it again after that BIG mistake..NO. I learn fast.<br /><br />To get to my point. I am in turmoil right now. I have a situation going on with my soon to be 17 year old son that I have ask myself what I should do. I know what I should do, but this is so hard. That goes back to another saying from the past that has followed us all to the present...a hard head makes a soft behind. I guess its time to let go of the little boy I would rock to sleep and sing lullabies to and hand him over to the world and see what kind of bed he makes for himself. I just know in my heart and mind that no matter what happens mom will be there to tuck him in. <br /><br />So for the time being I will get a good seat..and watch the big screen of life pass by while all the good choices and bad choices are made. This is what life is all about choices right?Lusbuckhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343090039419314663noreply@blogger.com1